go to the primal

 

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gathering the papers.  Titles,  everything i can think of to take to the DMV  ….department of motor vehicles.   To get legal to move the horse trailer and the airstream.  I am faced with,  for the first time, the reality that i might not have anything useful to present as far as the airstream.  ????????????

i bought it in Oregon and at that time i was in the company of a man friend,  traveling companion.  It was fresh from leaving Michigan and i was in the "I will NEVER own anything again" mode.  So i bought it but put it in his name.  So i have some kind of Title in his name,  but with his signature, too,

which maybe will help?  1989.  It was never licensed in N. Mex.  It had the plate from Oregon,  last i looked but i went out this morning to see that Nogal and Tenzen changed that.  Gone.  somewhere there in the sand,  but buried.  So i gathered what Proof i have and set out for the DMV.   It was PACKED to the door.  All manner of hopeful souls,  waiting till their number would be called.  I took a number and stood by the door.   2 hours passed and still there were more in front of me.  All,  seemingly with complicated circumstances.  Many were those hopeful to get just a formal New Mexico Identification.  You can feel the tension.  This world i live in is predominately spanish.  I assume many,  watching the changes taking place and doing what they feel is toward safety.  a picture ID with a "permanent" address.  Left and went to P.O. then to drop off the first wave at the Thrift Store which is closed on Friday.  A woman was dangling over and into their dumpster in the parking lot.  We exchanged smiles.  I gestured toward my bags.  She nodded.  

i had a vision of lasagna.  

went to grocery.  shopped slow.  

went back to DMV after their lunch break was over and once again,  many in front of me.  ok.

I'll try again next week but for now,  Lasagna.

 

Addendum

Went back to Gmail when finishing the above to find this 

 

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was entitled:  Emrie Grace   5   7/8s  months.    so…

so.

my Alyssia.   Her Emrie Grace.

Our,  ourSelves.  We go.

 

 

 

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20 responses to “feed self ……~addendum~”

  1. Michelle in NYC Avatar

    Awww Alyssia and Emrie Grace! That gorgeous lasagna is torture (I can’t eat wheat, or tomatoes right now) Looked for wheat free noodles but couldn’t find any so settled on transparent rice noodles to have with brotH. BUT THAT LASAGNA IS JUST WHAT I LOVE. I’ll eat it in my dreams.

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  2. ali Avatar
    ali

    Such a joyful picture Grace, lovely to see the reality of Emrie Grace, and your beautiful Alyssia.
    I have never seen such an amazing lasagne!

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  3. Peggy McG Avatar
    Peggy McG

    Tears in my eyes!! Wonderful pics!! Emrie GRACE!! Lasagna-food for the soul!!
    Sounds like you need a lawn chair and a good book to take to the DMV!

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  4. saskia Avatar

    eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Emrie Grace, such a lovely picture of a beautiful young woman & mother, and oh my i do wish i could eat lasagna, have discovered i no longer tolerate gluten

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  5. KAMFreeman Avatar

    Gloriously beautiful Alyssa and blossoming Emrie Grace….and your lasagna, the DMV for sure can wait another day…to treat yourself with such deliriousness,is, I am sure, perfection for the day.
    The moving, getting things and animals and self ready, moving along at a good clip. In the blink of an eye everything will be shifting and moving to Chico…and new adventure, a new landscape in so many ways…and just what is right for each of us as the ages keep putting one more number on the stack. As one who made such a shift late in my 60’s, I say, yes, yes and a big yes to everything coming up new and fresh and alive…it will be wonderful to follow the stories you write of the leaving, the going, the transition and all that will be new.. a wonderful story to weave.
    Kristin

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  6. Martine Bos Avatar

    Beautiful Alyssia and Emrie Grace……..
    This makes me so happy!

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  7. Liz A Avatar

    I love that mothers now wear clothing that proclaims their child-to-be … so much better and more real than the tents I wore 30+ years ago! And Emrie Grace … a beautiful name

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  8. margaret johnson Avatar
    margaret johnson

    Gorgeous Alyssia, PROUDLY showing off her Beautiful Emrie Grace. Lots of GOOD things to you both, oxox

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  9. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    Both photos, nourishing us all; one promising good eating, the other filled with the joy of becoming. Emrie grace, your ole Nana will feed you well. Your beautiful smiling Mama Alyssia surrounds you with her joy and love AND here is where I get a bit wacky but in looking at the colors in both photos, the luscious reds and oranges of the lasagna, the joyful orange stripes of Alyssia’s dress, the sense of food and love, food as love, love as food for the soul, connects deeply.

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  10. grace Avatar

    i am just like LOST in wondering what the deal is with Wheat
    after all these years….Wheat is toxic??????
    Knock on Wood
    i can eat like any animal, a pig maybe

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  11. grace Avatar

    the lasagne came out just pretty much well… would have liked
    more sauce
    but its all playing it by ear and i was just some short. But it
    was CHEEZY…gooie…and with 2 layers of spinach
    I will eat it all week with variations. Today, with Jalapeno peppers.

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  12. grace Avatar

    actually….i love eavesdropping on conversations there…listening to the rest of the world and their lives
    I’ll go again, i think on Tuesday.

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  14. grace Avatar

    as i said above…What IS THIS…the gluten intolerance??????
    Need to educate self

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  15. grace Avatar

    i want it. i want “the blink of an eye”…i WANT IT but
    i need to just go

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  16. grace Avatar

    it made me so happy too…i love her Eyes

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  17. grace Avatar

    just had this conversation with Alyssia about maternity clothes…
    remembering and telling her

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  18. grace Avatar

    yes. PROUD. so so PROUD. and still,
    very vulnerable

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  19. grace Avatar

    it does connect, doesn’t it…waves of color and feeling

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