windthread

so…two days.  overcast or actually raining.  Cold.  Which allowed even more space from the intensity of the last few weeks.  Space.  silence,  inside and out.  Tomorrow back up in the 70's again and we will begin again.  But the quiet,  inner and outer,  is in beautyFull contrast to what it had gotten to.  

Two things to note.

on the 24th i received the box from Taking Root.  Things Cynthia had intuited to send.  One of which was Tension Release.  a tincture.  "to support the relaxation of mind and body".  Organic alcohol, glycerin, Skullcap,  Passionflower,  Motherwort,  Blue Vervain and Rose Petals.    How to use:  2 – 5 droppers full.  Straight or to a small glass of water.  Repeat every 30 minutes or as needed.  Up to 25 droppers per day.  That first day i put 2 droppers full in maybe 2 Tbs of water…..went about the evening feeding.  Somewhere along the line in that i realized that i wasn't BUZZING…wasn't uh,  "wired" but more my regular self.  ok.   Woke next morning and again,  the rush of adrenalin…this was during the time that the use of the Goat trailer could be denied.   2 droppers full.  same response.  And then, once more,  the next morning…the morning of taking all the PROOF  to MVD.    So i can say this.  Once again,  Lani of Taking Root is Herbalista Supreme.  Because of my sensibilities,  any allopathic "medicine" is not an option.  Because of my own physical make up,  i need,  need to rely on my own Self to find my way.  Just how it is.  Always HAS been.  no need to try to make anything OF that,  it just is.  For me.  Everyone needs to find their way for themSelves and it differs.  Heart to heart Body to body.  I have no blanket judgement.  We all know ourSelves best.  But to say that this tincture WORKS.  it WORKS.  for me,  in an unprecedented  time,  so much riding on my Going…so many lives….the overwhelm of that Need.  and i was flailing.  The Tension Release allowed me to gain some equilibrium from the overwhelm of the physical body.  I wish it were not so.  I wish i could have accomplished it with just Sitting,  Breathing,  Being.  But i couldn't.  maybe if there is a next time,  maybe i might be able to,  but this time,  i am grateful for that release.  Like a spell was broken.

Then the second thing was yesterday.  Sometimes SoundsTrue comes into the email in box.  There was a mail about Eckhart Tolle's  seminar in Australia.  I have loved him since a long time, but do not follow his work.  It is so similar to Buddhism.  But i kept passing by that Email until i thought there was a reason.  Clicked it and there was an online synopsis of this current teaching.  Listened to some and to the "webinar" at the end…webinar,  a word that makes me cringe…. but 

he talked about the incessant voice of the mind and talked about a tool….   To take one's attention INTO the hands…our physical hands…take the attention There…   FEEL the hands…hands the physical beauty of the hands…Feel them.   Feel the feet,  the beingness of the feet…FEEL the feet,  he said that if we are intensely focused on feeling what our hands/feet FEEL like,  then in those moments,  we are UnAble to have other thoughts.  I 've tried this a few times and it's True.  Will work with this.  

Just now it began raining Again.  eeeee.  a cloud burst.    But there's tomorrow.

this is in the lower,  lowest,  left of the Diaries Cloth Other Side.  Where we are now.  For the Going.

the point of Beginning.

Just hung up from Alyssia's progress report.  They worked all day.  Set those gate posts for the Buck half of the Goat Forest.  Hauled river rock for the French Drains.  Pounded t posts.  stretched fencing.

i wonder what Emrie imagines as she floats in her water world.  Listening.  Feeling.  with her growing brain,  listening  Soul.   We will have so many stories to tell her of this time when she is Here and Not Yet.