reminded self that singing ,  does something.   When i sing,  it's no known song,  but rather just random sounds and melody that is created as it goes.  The freer i get the more Good the song,  the more pleasing,  the more Easy of Flow.   I sang as i used the weed whacker to cut the Kochia that remained after i'd cut by hand all that was near wood and stone.   Done.  before it set seed which would have been any day  now.   At least in this House yard.  Tomorrow,  Out There.

but singing.  And then i sang while washing dishes and other things and then sang when i went to care for the Goats.  I sang a long time to Nogal while filling his water tub and scratching with one hand.  I sang to Gideon and some to Sunny Ray,  but he was spinning…it's just how he feels right now.

 

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this Cloth is now in the shop and it is,  a song, really

 

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Cinderella continues to distance herSelf.  Her mother,  Ginger,  continues to be her intermediary to the herd.  I watch.  I cannot know.  It belongs to Them.

 

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Michelle.  Ms Uncertainty Principles.  click her name in any comment.  Michelle posted today a truly Extraordinary post about the life and work of Marija Gimbutas….about her lifelong study of   "goddess".  There are two videos.  one is long but extraordinary.  i need to watch again.  

i have always shied away from the word Goddess.  somehow it paired with the word Worship.  in the same way that the word God paired.   But today,  watching these videos,  i was able to go past that and on,  into a world where women sing their way through the days.  just as i had today.  and it all clicked.   it answered the unasked question of why the Hill, now.  Why this change from singular to community of female.  I need to watch and listen again but i saw that what is happening,  against all odds for me and my daughter and my granddaughter and her daughter is an urge toward and back to the antidote for the toxic world we find ourSelves faced with.

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13 responses to “singing”

  1. Mo Crow Avatar

    This post is like the “shy singing beast” C.S. Lewis wrote about in Perelandra who stands alone in the woods and sings beautifully when she thinks she is not being watched (((Grace)))

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  2. Michelle in NYC Avatar

    All the photos of the goats today…their attention…super beautiful…and thinking of you singing through touches my heart.
    So glad you recognized “Return” as being about return to knowledge of the not so distant past…and so like what you and your family are about to embark upon. I love the second 1 hour film best by the way.
    LINK http://mscomfortzone.blogspot.com/2017/08/return.html

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  3. cynthia Avatar
    cynthia

    may thoughts of song..singing itself is in the air..is needed right now..as i was reading your words this arrived in a post from another goat woman…
    Shepard, They say that on your barren mountain ridge
    You have measured out the road that the soul treads
    When it has vanished from our natural eyes:
    That you have talked with apparitions.
    Goatherd. Indeed
    My thoughts since the first stupor of youth
    Have found the path my goat’s feet cannot find.
    Shepard. Sing, for it may be that your thoughts have plucked
    Some medicable herb to make our grief
    Less bitter, W,B, Yeats
    sending you the song of right here ..sweet baby laughter, a new calf..goats and a falling rain..my own tuneless chants on a gray and beautiful morning
    gentle day grace

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  4. grace Avatar

    i wonder if i will be able to sing while in the company
    of others?

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  5. grace Avatar

    both are deeply thought provoking.
    i thank you so much for bring them to me…
    they inform me about how i want to bring awareness to the Hill

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  6. grace Avatar

    to bring OurSelves into the mornings with
    the singing of chants, the flow of sound
    from our long trailing roots

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  7. Patty Avatar

    My grandma was a lovely singer but shy. She would stand behind
    a door and sing. Just find a door, Grace, just a bit apart but sing
    your song!

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  8. jude Avatar

    I sing all the time. bits and pieces of songs patched together. I see the Hill as a kind of cooperation. I don’t think about women in such a big way. I just am one. Learning from that.

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  9. grace Avatar

    i know you don’t.
    but her work, Marija Gimbutas, her lifelong work, opens a whole
    different door to the archetype of the Feminine for me.
    You might like the two videos that Michelle has given….the art as
    language…symbols, a visual language. I thought of your sense
    of language often as i watched and listened.
    to think about the Feminine in such a big way….this is central to
    my experience of the “world” since childhood…Everything is
    the Feminine.
    Michelle entitled her post Return. So i am going “back”, reViewing,
    and looking at that avoidance of the concept of Goddess, to look
    for what i need in these times.

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  10. grace Avatar

    what a beauty Full story those few words tell…behind a door…
    i am not such a good singer at all, but when i sing this way
    i am the best that i am and i find a peacefulness in it
    Thanks for that about your grandma…

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  11. Liz A Avatar

    I am inordinately shy about my singing around other people EXCEPT when I’m holding a baby. Then I sing without any cares. Surely you and Emrie will share many, many songs.

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  12. saskia Avatar

    being able to be together, functioning as a group, family or not, that is a gift
    truely it is
    i’m not good in groups

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  13. grace Avatar

    i have been more comfortable alone all my life. But there
    is a lot calling to this endeavor. We will need to learn
    how to do it as we go.

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