windthread

so i think i said that i'd brought Goldie to the Way Back Goat Gate …to Tay,  who watches there as i feed,  that i brought Goldie to her and she snorted, nicely, on him

and i brought him again,  last eve and they touched faces,  or rather mouths/nose,  mutually,  both wanting to and how this second time she was very still and just "tasted him" with the tip of her tongue, so carefully

and i came home today from town and usually she is right at the gate but she wasn't and i came in to see her just over there,  lying under the wild rose bush,  her attention caught tight to the slat in the wood fencing where she watches the Feral Family.  Their world is just on the other side.  

I've known she watches them there all along,  but today there was a difference…she was magnetized and i stood and watched as Goldie stick either his paw or his very face through a place where the wood is a little broken out.  

the place where he puts his face or paw through so Tay can taste him.

so what does this SAY?  Goldie really wants to be someone's cat.  He accompanies me now for everything….close,  right at my foot.  While i fill the Goats Water Tub he rubs on my ankles,  the hose,  the rock,  purring.  He doesn't resist when i pick him up and carry him the long way to the gate to touch faces with Tay and he just purrs through it all.  He is fearless and Willing.

Wheat,  who i think is his sister,  female,  remains distant,  like her mother.  Feral.

so am thinking…unless something happens,  which it can,  i will get Goldie neutered and somehow find him a home.  

What would be great is if i could bring him IN…as into the house.  This would be great for Tay in helping her know things about small fast moving Others…which will be chicks on the Hill.  Will help her understand how to "know" them.  She innately is this way…just wanting to know…and this is HUGE…in that big new picture she will find herSelf a part of.  But i don't think i should…bring him in.  They are wild and who knows what they "carry".  That in itself,  but then,  just in respect for Tazmeena.  She has her PLACE here.  She earned her PLACE.  she is old.  She should not need to deal with something energetic and new.  Just that she has to share the underneath of the house is enough.

so all this.  I think.  hmmmm.