windthread

i wanted that moment when i pushed back the tarp,  just some,  pushed it back in order to expose enough alfalfa for the morning feed…a flake,  as it's referred to,  a flake of alfalfa, and pushing it back,  in the time of Gideon's death,  but also the time of the just going of the rest of Us…because it's what we need to do

i wanted that moment.   When i pushed back the tarp and there

was that young snake,  so purely what is was/is

just looking….still and perfect and elegantly a young snake,  STILL and looking at me 

and i wanted to KEEP that moment,  like freeze frame.  I wanted it to be held.  Still.  Long enough.  in that moment,  so it would mark me in a way that i would never,  NEVER for a second forget the feeling.  

But how it goes,  i extended my hand and young snake Dis~Appeared.  back under the tarp.  and i went ahead and pulled off the flake and split it and fed Goats.  Like Jude says,  Poof.

and the Stuff of life went on and there was This morning,  Monday,  going out,  before needing to go to Work Away,  and seeing that the tarp had been blown off by Wind

i flattened it some,  thinking to dry the moisture off and when i got back HOME i would fold it because there is supposed to be just SUN for the next days,  which will take us to Friday when a New Half Ton bale will come,   and i went forward to pull today's flake

i couldn't hold that moment…i was UN able to hold it,  but HERE….something left,  that i can hold….double click and too,  beneath…

can you see?  The WHOLE of the head,  eyes,  is shed

and taking it  off,  i had to be so Care FULL,  how the skin was intertwined with the stems of the alfalfa,  but i could FEEL it,  how so so great that must have felt,  the needing to shed and the stiffness of the alfalfa stems to catch and pull and enable the  seperation

i brought it  in to the Altar.  When we Go,  i'll wrap it in the Gideon Cloth.  

Today

his presence remains.