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today. this day. Now

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from the Farmer's Market this morning.  In person,  it is vibrating with it's own Beauty.

The windows are washed,  their screens dusted of Goat hoof dust.  We're ready here.    I make that gesture i was taught by the Mustang Woman….arm outstretched,  but elbow slightly bent,  hand extended, palm down, fingers curved,  relaxed.  Ready.  

 

 

 

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at the Post Office.   It's my this year's birthday present.  almost 3 months early,  i'm not sure why?    She, Alyssia , and I have been attending the OnLine workshops from Ram Dass in Hawaii  for 2 years now.  Have watched him move closer to his death.   This book was just released….she was excited to see it.  Maybe that's why?  or…who knows,  maybe she's noticed something.  Either way

so put this up early.  it's 4:00.   is the first day in forever that No One has been here.  I want to spend this eve catching up with comments.  

last early eve i saw that my little personal garden at B has been eaten.  Most of it…the Peruvian Golden Berry bush,  two Moringa,  yarrow,  milkweed,  the remaining stump of the previously ravaged Hydrangea,  the what i called failure to thrive lettuces which were re-named thrive of their own accord…them.  The tomato plants trampled.  The Butterfly plant of some sort that Jenny recently brought,  unpotted but left intact.  Goats… under part of the temporary fencing.  Ok.  Enough for now.  Will take down the two Tree Collards to the Wall Garden.  Let it go for this year.  Maybe begin again in Spring when a more permanent fence can go up.  

the windows are so BeautyFull

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6 responses to “today. this day. Now”

  1. jaime Avatar
    jaime

    Grace, You are amazing. I am impressed you can allow your ex to your home. I logically understand the acceptance but can not feel it. My poor son doesn’t have the option to talk to me about his step father because I hold so much negativity about that portion of my life. May I learn some of the capacity you have.
    I see how fencing takes over priorities. Goats. Deer. Groundhogs. Rabbits. I hope for your birthday you get your house. With lots of bright clean windows. And fencing.

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  2. Liz A Avatar
    Liz A

    “the first day in forever” … can be taken so many ways
    I love gifts given when it is the right time, rather than on some arbitrary schedule … this makes so much sense to me
    Here, too, Don has been washing windows … the better to see the rain that is finally falling

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  3. Mo Crow Avatar
    Mo Crow

    ‘Be Here Now’ was such an inspiration back then, I loved the lay out as much as the ideas!

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  4. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    dear You, Jaime….amazing, no, not at all. Just years
    of slowing understanding Letting Go….the Buddhist practice,
    it wasn’t always that way.
    and today, i wouldn’t want him for a friend. But how he
    chooses to move through his life is his business. How the kids choose to relate is theirs.
    Metta. i honestly can do Metta for him…may he be safe, may he be healthy, may he be happy, may he live with ease
    in the same way i can do Metta for the world of human beings, without defining what each of those things might be….that’s not for me to know.
    it’s a short visit. once a year, and not to ME, but to this Hill. i do not invite him into my “space”.

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  5. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    the book is surprisingly WONDER FULL

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  6. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    actually, i was “put off” by it.
    HE put me off. Then.
    and for years, i didn’t think to look at him.
    but in the last few, i look. and see that over all this time, he has not wavered. And in the last few, to me, something was emerging.
    I like this book very much so far. He is not looking at
    “death”, but he is looking into his own face, into his own death, that is emminent. It is a gift to witness this.

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