windthread

i wish this could be scratch and sniff.   It was a misty,  sometimes foggy day.  Slight rainfall off and on and i found self wandering,  looking for those two little ferns i saw the other day.  Could not find.  But there is such Energy,  you can feel the earth vibrating with it's  wet work and the fragrance of it….oh,  eeeeeeeeee,  

Manzanita.  Will bring some more small cuttings tomorrow,  for the dye jar.  Before i used dry ones.  This time,   when they are energized.

the back of one…sometimes they grow all forward.  I don't know why.  Here,  she looks naked.

On Being.  Conversation with Pauline Boss about   Ambiguous Loss.  I fell asleep last night loving those two words but woke in the middle of the night thinking….Ambiguous Unknowing.    She says that with ambiguous loss,  there is no possibility of closure or resolution and that's ok.  To learn how to live with it,  be with it.   And i am wondering if i found a way to make a world of ambiguous unknowing  to  allow for  my own joy?  Hoping tonight will bring more information.