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Dearest old crippled TenZen.  In his own space.    Small,  the end of the corridor between he and Nogal's forest and the Doe Forest.  But he doesn't use much space.  What he will appreciate most is being able to eat without looking over his shoulder.  And then,  lately,  being run off.  No matter which pile he tries.  Nogal has CLAIMED everything.  

So.  new double fencing.  This new shelter hut.  His own water tub.   He is right next to Nogal,  so it should "count" as together.  Even tho together isn't great,  together matters to Goats.  I just came in from evening Feed and see that his head is bloody.  I guess they have been bashing heads through their shared fence.  That should be over with in a day or so.  Goats.

 

 


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and Nogal got the other new hut.  His tarp tent will go down,  probably,  but i think he likes it.  We'll see which he prefers.

Back to the initial thought….Are we Crazy?   WHAT are we doing?   ????????????????????.   Is that original and initial MISSION still alive,  to have a herd of DAIRY GOATS..milk/cheese?????   is it?  

this is so one of those kaliedascope  (sp)  moments,  startlingly so,  so many things,  as we worked we talked…who can we  breed to who,  the lineage and i realize that i can't remember and part of why i can't remember is all the life confusions and and but also because i wrote it all on the Calendar,  and this is Calendar Time,  and all those old calendars are over in the storage unit and i can't get to them.  I am 99% sure of what i did,  but…..

so i email Marti because she remembers everything and she refers me to a post in the archives from 2013 and i go back to it,  become lost in 2013 till i give up….and this is why the Calendars are so critical….you flip through the months,  the Butterflies, and SEE it…then you can go to the archive and look on the blog….

Oh Jeez.

So,  maybe tomorrow.  Maybe we will put Celia in with TenZen.  Can he manage?,  with his crippled front legs?  

and put Who?  in with Nogal?

it only takes a few minutes if the doe is willing to Stand.   

Julian goes to his father's in New Jersey for the summer.     We are DONE with Goats that have to be chased.  Any kids now need to be loved/handled from birth.  Leash trained.  So they can be vetted when necessary,  so they can be evacuated if necessary.  This would be for Julian.  We will keep whatever bucklings,  Neuter them,  Wethers,  keep them to work the land here with the Does.  This is for him.  When he leaves,  i'll need to pick up the thread.  

Jenny and i stood there,  looking.   Are we Crazy?  What is this?

  When i went back to the 2013 post,  i read how i referred to her as the incommunicado daughter.  Which she was.  And here we are today.  

ADDENDUM

learn.  once and for all.  how to spell Kaliedoscope 

 

 

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19 responses to “are we just Crazy?”

  1. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    Hope the info I found for you helped. Celia holds a special place in my heart because when she was born I asked if you could name her for my beloved salsa queen, Celia Cruz and you did and I danced in joy. I think I even said that the next time I came to visit, I would bring scarves and dance around Celia and the herd and I did, even though I worried if they would be scared to see a crazy woman dancing about…so in helping you remember, I relived a joyful time!

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  2. Tina Avatar
    Tina

    My God Grace .. am I reading the best novel ever written!! Or is it an Oscar winning Epic Movie .. I have no idea but I’m here till the end.

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  3. Mo Crow Avatar

    those new goat pods look very dry and sturdy & isn’t Crazy Wisdom the stud name of your herd? shine on you crazy diamond(s)!!!
    here’s a link to the song (all 13:22 minutes)
    https://youtu.be/cWGE9Gi0bB0
    Pink Floyd ‘Wish You Were Here’

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  4. Cheryl Avatar
    Cheryl

    Thank you so much for this link. I haven’t listened to Pink Floyd in so many years, and what a joy it was to hear them again. I remember this song seeming so deep and morose when I first heard it, and now it seems so full of joy and wisdom. Loved it!

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  5. Dana Webb Avatar

    Things have really changed since 2013 (has it really been that long?). I remember that post too… without knowing any details I felt sad about the distance between you and your daughter. Now look.

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  6. Michelle Slater Avatar

    How I know and appreciate the importance of calendar time! Mo…that Pink Floyd is so right to describe the amazing leap of faith the family took. Of course no one ‘planned’ on that storm. Life is what happens when we’re busy making plans…
    Meanwhile, the lyric:
    “Remember when you were young, you shone like the sun. Shine on you crazy diamond. Now there’s a look in your eyes, like black holes in the sky. Shine on you crazy diamond. You were caught in the cross fire of childhood and stardom. Blown on the steel breeze. Come on you target for faraway laughter. Come on you stranger, you legend, you martyr, and shine! You reached for the secret too soon, you cried for the moon. Shine on you crazy diamond. Threatened by shadows at night, and exposed in the light. Shine on you crazy diamond. Well you wore out your welcome with random precision. Rode on the steel breeze. Come on you raver, you seer of visions. Come on you painter, you piper, you prisoner, and shine!”
    Keep on shining dear Grace.

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  7. jude Avatar

    are we all just…?

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  8. cynthia Avatar
    cynthia

    …sitting here..as so many are ..spread everywhere around this planet…listening to Pink Floyd..full of memories ..i remember the 2013 post as well..not in detail..just the feeling of it..the weight of it…and the incredible lightness of now..not because there aren’t huge new weights here as well..but because i constantly delight in seeing your world..but even more watching you be with your people..watching the children grow..watching tendrils of relationships take hold..knowing how glad i am that you are in a place of care and caring…crazy..i cannot even begin to define that word in this world anymore..
    yesterday’s dawn was one of the most beautiful i have ever experienced..so full of the sounds of birds right here and rushing water in the valley below..and light so golden it seemed unreal..it was above freezing and so much melting..and today we are back to 11 degrees and a gray that feels a bit dense to me at the moment..i think i really needed one more day in a row of that golden light..,,but then..as always..it was such a joy to open this post and to find it right here..in your pictures..in your words and in the familiar names and responses ..even in confusion and questions..if this is crazy..i feel fortunate to be in its company..gentle day grace

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  9. dee Avatar

    It’s a lot

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  10. joanne Avatar
    joanne

    With all my Heart, I wish you could go to the storage locker with the 9 year old and find the calendars. It’s like your history, your autobiography, your why and how of it.
    I don’t know if baby goats is the way of it with no way to chill or process milk. But if you think this is a good idea–you know best.

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  11. ² Avatar
    ²

    yes , you may it say…crazy , and i love to … somethimes
    greetz to you

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  12. grace Forrest Avatar

    yes…i kept her because of you

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  13. grace Forrest Avatar

    Smile…just a life

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  14. grace Forrest Avatar

    love it so much, the Pink Floyd has been the sound track
    for a few different times in my live

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  15. grace Forrest Avatar

    yes. it took its time, but wove into something new

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  16. grace Forrest Avatar

    May we all Shine on

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  17. grace Forrest Avatar

    so many kinds of crazy…like wildflowers…
    am grateful to tried quite a few and grateful for
    this one now

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  18. grace Forrest Avatar

    not so much, if you just do some at a time

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  19. grace Forrest Avatar

    i know…i would like to too, but it will be ok.
    yes. something will have to happen for the milk and
    cheese. If it doesn’t, they can dry off after the
    kid Goats quit nursing. But in that meantime, we
    can milk a little…just enough for any one day…
    so the kids, children, can know

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