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it's complex,  this thought.  Can be many things or nothing or whatever is thought about it by Anyone.  All would be true, in their way.  So,  i just look at the thoughts.  Consider them.  For what they mean to me.  Not a lot of point in putting too many of the considerings here because it might very well change in the next days,  the thoughts about what is left of us,  our individual selves,  i think is nothing.  A generation away,  it is dissolved.  But wait…then,  there may be residue,  loving or not that remains with the beings who follow ,  taken in and transmuted into their own lifetime days,  becoming Their lives,  how they live.  ???  Maybe.  Am thinking that those are things i can't know and so aren't of use to spend a lot of time entertaining .  So,  then,  What? 

and what i am seeing is

trees.  Plant people.  who so care fully carry forward their particular gifts to the planet.  Can be  "counted on".   Runner roots,  tubers,  seed,  pollen.   Generation after generation, they Give.   

so here my thoughts have settled today.   My mark might be what i Plant tomorrow.  The next day.  The caring for it as it takes hold.   To be there,  for any being who might live here or pass through.  The native plants,  bushes and trees.  "My" mark only in the planting.  Theirs as they might continue.   just thoughts.

This Cloth is not how cloths are "supposed to be".  And i need it to be as is and not as it might be "supposed to be".  It appeared this way from the beginning,  from when i took the scraps from the baskets and put them together with no known imagining,  how they "fell".  But how they fell is perfect to me and then there was the surprise appearance of Cathy Bricker in a comment,  who knew me from the Art Doll days,  who knows my fiber figures,  causing me to go back,  remembering what they were,  how they were.  

her form is stitched only minimally,  enough to create her "form"…body….and i won't stitch it down more.  Needs to be exactly this way.  Stitching down would take away the life.  She is "secure" as this much….maybe how we all are,  secured just enough?

Lots of thoughts.  and i'm sick.  Julian had a snotty nose all week but that's it…then the day before yesterday Emrie had a runny nose,  but that's it,  and out of the blue  she realized how to play the harmonica and wanted to play her notes and then wanted me to play some and back and forth and it didn't occur to me,  but she was so HAPPY that even if it would have,  i probably would have played anyway and I woke this morning with aching sinuses,  stuffed nose,  scratchy throat.  So am glad to have all the above thoughts to Hold me till it goes away.  Next week there will be SUN.  0% chance of Rain.

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15 responses to “the Mark we leave, thinking, realizing”

  1. Angela G. Shipley Avatar

    W.O.W. oh Grace, she is SOOOOO beautiful!! I think she needs to come and live with me. She speaks directly to my soul/spirit. The most beautiful one!! I’m so sorry you are sick. I use vinegar, honey, in hot water with a dash of cayenne pepper, maybe some grated ginger, maybe some lemon juice. Sending healing, loving thoughts across the miles to you and yours, dear heart.

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  2. Michelle Slater Avatar

    So sorry to hear you’re sick. Kids do spread to each other and though the harmonica was a sweet moment I can imagine, hope your sinus and throat can recover soon enough for next weeks sunshine.
    She is really beautiful.

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  3. Mo Crow Avatar

    looking after our our beautiful broken world with heart and hands working with love, empathy, compassion

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  4. joanne Avatar
    joanne

    Angela describes what we call, here in Maine, Fire Syrup. Cider vinegar, honey and cayenne pepper. The grated ginger sounds good also. Take care.

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  5. dee Avatar

    Watched a show called After Life yesterday (funny, Netflix) that was about this business of what we give, what lasts after we’re gone, and whether goodness matters. A wise female character says to the grieving husband something like, ‘the truly generous person plants a tree they know they will never sit in the shade of.’ Your legacy. And even it will fade, but in a different way from memories and pots and dishes or artwork. Of course I am with the business of legacies as I sort through my sister’s belongings. What has she collected? What has had value to her and how is that different or the same as the value it might have for another? Will I find writings she wished she’d burned? Will I read them?

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  6. Liz A Avatar

    the honoring of cloth as it presents itself … this reminds me of the pennant you made for Mo … how it announced itself and you let it be

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  7. Deb G Avatar

    Hope you feel better soon. You’ve written some very meaningful posts this week…

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  8. Liz A Avatar

    P.S. I’d say we pick up the grandkids’ “stuff” about a third of the time … even knowing when they’re contagious, I can’t help getting close, too close

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  9. grace Forrest Avatar

    all these ingredients, Plus. I was not prepared. I guess
    i thought i’d skipped through????

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  10. grace Forrest Avatar

    yes. harmonica was dumb. Happy, but dumb.

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  11. grace Forrest Avatar

    working. working with everything we have.

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  12. grace Forrest Avatar

    it’s everywhere…Fire Cider. I have had some at hand
    and as a precaution for any suspect germy situation, but
    go caught off guard this time

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  13. grace Forrest Avatar

    am interested in your last question

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  14. grace Forrest Avatar

    this is very similiar

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  15. grace Forrest Avatar

    they arise, these thoughts…

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