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what is this large leaf?   Only one?

 


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what am i supposed to do?   

I walk out.   in the morning,  over to where the fallen tree lays.   Where i don't want to go.   I took  a glass full of Acey's  lamas 11

i asked.  What am i supposed to do?????

Come here.  look.  watch. 

   And later,  just a little while:   Bring her.

When she came,  just  a little while later  we did stuff,  just outside the door here and i said do you want to go talk to the trees and she said yes and we went.   She practices how to walk  without getting tangled in things,  she learns and we got to Over There where the Old Fallen Tree is and she stopped cold.   "NO,   old nana.  Scare"   So we stood awhile.  She wouldn't come closer.  Scare.   So we just looked.  and went off.  Later,  in the "house" ,  she revisited.   Scare, Nana,  she said and i said fallen.  It fell.  Now is a world to many things.  She listened with 2 year old ears and heard.   i said.  Do you want to go back and see?  Yes she siad.   Things take time.

 

 

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8 responses to “i ask”

  1. Tina Avatar
    Tina

    Old Nana .. I’ve always looked at you as a teacher. I seem to remember saying that quite a bit when I first found you. This little one that spends her days with you will be blessed with your treasured teachings her whole life… long after you are gone she will remember.

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  2. Liz A Avatar

    We took P to the Wildflower Center … she is just a few months older than Emrie and sure enough, when we came to the large fallen tree trunks where children are given a place to clamber, she stopped and said “I scared”
    2 … when they learn the World can be (is) a scary place … how fortunate we are to be a presence, to show what might be safe and what is truly something to be feared
    and your leaf … like a shell on the shore, a beautiful relic of a life lived … its patterns something to ponder … how it became, what it did in its life’s time

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  3. Saskia Avatar

    thought so too

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  4. grace Forrest Avatar

    to give her AnyThing of value….it is this, i would hope to do.

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  5. grace Forrest Avatar

    it is said that the young ones “coming through” now, Know.
    I hope this is so. That thing about “being born for your Time”….it eases something…i guess the grief
    Might they be born to shoulder it all?

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  6. grace Forrest Avatar

    who might have a catalpa nearby?

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  7. dee Avatar

    We have two catalpas in our yard. In the spring: orchid-like blossoms litter the ground. In the fall, long pods drop (earning the tree the name, “Cigar Tree” in some areas). Also in the fall: leaves the size of dinner platters.
    in my research about SC, I learned that the tree was more originally known as a “Catawba” — after one of the original people of the Lowlands. I also learned that the pods contain a hallucinogen and the natives used to dry, grind, and smoke the stuff.
    Lastly, the tree is home to a fantastic form of bait — the Sphinx Moth — earning the tree yet another name, “The Bait Tree.” A tree had to be “seeded” with the moths, but once done, they’d come back again and again and anglers would bang the branches and the caterpillars (a brilliant green and black) would rain down. (I have two chapters featuring this activity)
    If you find the tree where it fell, the smaller branches would show lots of knuckles.

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