i can't remember a moment that was as physically, emotionally and of Spirit exhausting.
as i said…it began at 11 am with some thread of mucus. She didn't go with the Herd when they set out for the morning, but stood in the road and called softly off into the Forest. She then went to the Kidding House we built…on her own and lay there a bit but when i went back out moments later, she'd gone into the Doe Goat Shelter….pic of yesterday. I leaned on the wall and watched her. To be sure. After a couple hours Messaged Alyssia and Jenny to say i was pretty sure we were ON. Alyssia and the kids arrived. Late afternoon Jenny after work. We settled in. Evening went on and there were small signs of progress. We practiced how we could Be, a 10 year old, 2 and 1/2 year old, 3 women, a no longer young Doe Goat, a nosy chicken and anxious Dog and a closely watching cat. it went ON. I am too tired for details but it wasn't till about 11:30 pm that Emrie melted down and asked to go into the house to OUSCH Nana's bed. We went and soon she crashed leaving Jenny, Alyssia and Julian Out There. Julian didn't come back. I was surprised. Somewhere at almost midnight there was That CRY….piercing and loud and i thought GOOD, finally we've done it , but then time passed and there were more cries. Too Many.
Jenny Called (isn't that amazing? a phone call from feet away) to say come out here, i said then send Julian in. I woudn't leave Emrie alone. Jenny said never mind….there are concerns. It's ok. So i sat in dark silence except for Caroline's Cries.
I am too tired for the details tho the Details are important to record here….The kid was not positioned for birth. Jenny ended up needing to put her hand in and reposition while Alyssia held Caroline UP to relieve the pressure…Julian was the flashlight.
Somewhere around midnight Alyssia came and put on Emries boots and carried her out. I told Tay to STAY and followed and there, 2 Goats. New Born STANDING. STANDING. emitting the tiniest small wibbly cries of BEING.
we dried them off while Caroline licked them into Life. They were ALIVE and WHOLE and so READY.
Caroline was someWhere Else….making small sounds, standing there, as she had stood for the last 14 hours
it's done. Birth. Two Perfect Bucklings. Beauty FULL in all ways. A Doe Goat, who trusted us and STOOD.
Jenny stayed till 4. She had to be at work at 7am. Alyssia left soon after and i sat there, out in that Kidding House that we had built. Sat on the Earth, atop the wool Web that Lace Lady had sent so long ago. On my body, a cotton shirt covered with an old wool sweater, and then a cotton jacket that Jenny found me at goodwill and then all covered with an old WOOL blanket pulled in tight around my legs and feet and i sat there on the earth and listened and watched to be sure that things were ok and i sat there on into Dawn and then beyond. To try to be sure that things were ok.
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