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the Presentation you want to see.   The amniotic sac,   which breaks,  and there are two forelegs,  hoofs down   and just along, a nose.   For so long,  with each contraction,  just one leg.    Upon palpation,   only one leg presenting.   A week or so ago she'd sent me a link that talked about inserting a finger into the rectum to rearrange positioning.  I looked but didn't go read.   It was the first time either she or I had seen mention of that.   And   Well….after the hours,   she inserted her finger into the rectum and there,  pressing against,  another hoof and leg.   Next contraction,  she pushed the presenting back in and from the rectum pushed  that leg back and down.   it proceeded from there.   While they were admiring him the second buckling  just slid out.   We could have called the Mobile Vet.  But we don't know…how long it would take…IF she would come at midnight.  When he did finally come through,  his tongue was hanging.   Time had gone by.   So it was from the Internet.   This says something.  It actually says a LOT.   First buckling  4lb 6oz   second 4lb 2.5 oz.   Big kids.  It could have gone a very different way.   This daughter of mine.   She does what needs doing.   Tomorrow….we'll talk about that, when she comes…  Retelling how it went,  her fears and her Just Going.   Relates to All that is unfolding now.

and Alyssia just came…bringing their little sweaters,   washed and dried,   we went Out and put them on  and  it's late and i want to finish all this tomorrow morning.   There is Need for documentation of things.   So…tomorrow.   Finally,  tonight….sleep.  Just sleep.   Beloved Sleep.   How sleep matters.   to Just Going.   for me.   

Love.    Love to all who read this.   May your night be soft and gentle.   May you 

sleep.

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23 responses to “we go. Part One”

  1. Acey Avatar

    the bucklings were much loved and admired (especially the sweaters…) here as we have congregated in need of light and easy joy. I had hoped you might post more pictures before I seek sleep and here they are.
    loved that pic of Emrie standing and looking straight down. To imagine the telling and re-telling – how that will be woven into the Hill itself.
    (and also I made special note that in the pics from yesterday Mr. Julian appeared the very opposite of impervious …)

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  2. Nanette Avatar

    Sweet babies, blessed babies xx

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  3. Nancy Avatar

    Sleep for you all…
    xo

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  4. jude Avatar

    birth, the freshness of them.
    Jenny must feel some amazing feeling about being so much a part of this new life.

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  5. Liz A Avatar

    the full-ness of this … thank you for documenting and sharing it here
    they are beautiful

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  6. Tina Avatar
    Tina

    Oh Grace … such a beautiful story to tell.

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  7. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    Yes, keep notes, document, write it down because it is the story of the Hill and family and legacy and above all, thank you for telling it to us.

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  8. Els Avatar

    Ahhhh Grace they are sooooo SWEET!

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  9. Jacqui Avatar
    Jacqui

    “….she does what needs doing..” thats because of your life’s example Grace I’m sure. And what a wonderful time to focus on all of this to put in your book of days that Jenny asked for because all of this you made happen Grace. And maybe the memory of the old cb was to remind you that the ones you love will carry on, will carry what the ocb gave you all a chance to do, to bring new life, new order to this life, and these times.

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  10. grace Forrest Avatar

    he was. he was there throughout those hours, having to focus the light on the STAGE where everything was happening and Jenny said today that a couple times he gagged, but kept going. Never asked to leave.
    Emrie…dear Emrie….when they would make their tiny frail newborn sounds, she would squat and lean into them and say
    “don’t cry, Come to Mama”……….where did she GET THIS????
    we don’t know….one of her kid cartoons?, ??????
    Come to mama.

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  11. grace Forrest Avatar

    new life. it repeats with reliability. New. Life.
    we can count on it.

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  12. grace Forrest Avatar

    i have never loved sleep so much as now.
    Back in the old days when i had to work one weekend
    of midnights every month….that would make me cry.
    This…I will know not to repeat.

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  13. grace Forrest Avatar

    it has always been hers. now it is HERS.

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  14. grace Forrest Avatar

    this is where it all is. I hope it floats in the ethers
    forever…or it’s gone unless they can remember and TELL.

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  15. grace Forrest Avatar

    it’s good, to think of it as a Story…the Story of
    the Now of this Hill

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  16. grace Forrest Avatar

    to Tell. the Telling gives Life for the Going

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  17. grace Forrest Avatar

    they ARE. there are no words

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  18. grace Forrest Avatar

    she and i were talking today as we watch them and thinking about names
    she said…maybe we should call him Old Cowboy.
    I am so grateful for these days with her. So rich and
    deep and warm and GOOD.

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  19. Acey Avatar

    wow. that’s everything, really.

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  20. Jan Rowan Avatar
    Jan Rowan

    How wonderful ….thank you for sharing these precious moments….these precious beings coming at this time to show us the beauty of life….and you and your family working together being midwives to the mother….I am loving the photos….and I acknowledge what you shared about your reaction…love to you…..

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  21. grace Forrest Avatar

    we learn from All things
    Love to you, Jan

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  22. Debra A. Price Agrums Sposa Avatar

    Such beautiful markings on the new babies. Hoping you are well and safe Grace.

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