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it was a day that seemed to go on forever.   it had no Time.   it only had doings.  and they flowed,  one into another and were intense and full of feeling and full of physical doing and full of Life itself.   Life.   LIFE.   it began in a difficult and awkward for me way of my son,  expressing anger at my daughter on her facebook page.   How so much i DO not like Facebook.  But there it was and he was extremely distraught by the fact that she continues to come here,  that we all…her, Alyssia, kids are seeming to flaunt  caution in extreme times.   He was ANGRY.    I understand.  it is true.  i will be toast if i meet up with this virus.  it is true that Alyssia is compromised to the extent that she is at Risk.   There is no denying these things .   He is correct.   His FEAR is also without question.    But….how do we go?   

We unloaded feed in pellet form.   New kinds,  timothy and alfalfa mix for the bucks.   Dug earth and placed  what Jenny calls Pickle Jars,   food grade plastic containers…these were for Olives…i'll have to take a pic for you to understand them,   barrels.  There is gossip on the farm exchanges about a sudden dearth  of feed possible,  which doesn't make sense,  Right?   But what does anymore.   So that  and before and in the midst of ,  we spent time with the babies who we are totally intent on being  human oriented.  For that to happen,   hours of the day,  everyday,  they need human contact.  

Emrie learned how to pick up a baby.   She listens Care FULL y and follows step by step.   SUCCESS and we Celebrate.  

What all to say.   We Go.   on.   into  our lives.   Sitting with Jenny before all else,  just watching the babies,  i heard Self going on about what i Believe.   as i said it outloud to her,  i said it to myself aloud…that the EARTH is SPEAKING.  That mycelium is speaking  to these Doe Goats,  to  Caroline,  to the babies….informing them.   That the TREES here….they too,  lean over  us and speak with invisible words,  informing us.   It's crazy.  but i believe it's True.   In the past…Jenny would have stared off into the distance of not listening.   She did not today….she looked down,   at the grass we sat on,  a gentle and soft gaze.

There is so much Love happening

 

 

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23 responses to “choice”

  1. Mo Crow Avatar
  2. sparrow Avatar
    sparrow

    please don’t say it’s-crazy
    um…
    unless you mean crazy in a awareness is not usual acculturatedly
    because of course as you Know
    it is least crazy
    because of-course…you know?
    but of course!
    oh those goats’n Emrie picking them up!!!

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  3. Saskia Avatar

    I totally get that you meet up, I mean you could not cope on your own out there
    I also get his anger and fear, we all react in different ways in these tumultuous times, back and forth between panic, fear, rational thoughts, compassion
    everything is topsy turvy, especially so I sense in our organized western world way of life where we have come to expect and assume so much
    amazing how a tiny virus can have such a huge effect on us all

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  4. Liz A Avatar

    how we choose to go in the world … how much is motivated by love and by fear … how joy cannot be chosen … it just is
    may you be well …

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  5. jude Avatar

    we make the best choices we know how. based on what we have to do. Please just take as much care as possible that’s all. I fear I will not see my son for quite a while.

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  6. Dana Avatar

    Your little goatlets are such a flash of joy in these uncertain times. Saskia expressed my thoughts perfectly…we are all on thin ice right now.
    Appreciate your son’s anger as a form of caring, appreciate the help of the others as essential support, do your best to keep safe. I am holding you in my heart.

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  7. Irene Avatar
    Irene

    The picture of Emrie and the goat says it all…love and wonder keep us tied to the world.

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  8. Acey Avatar

    It’s difficult to find the way. Our son has no intention of staying home now that his boss is back at the helm again. He is declared an essential service. more importantly last thing he wants is to lose job, health insurance (given he actually needs it right now) and be utterly dependent on us. But the situations ups our risk factor as well as his own and we all know it.
    at this point the only hopefully realistic goal I hold is to take on faith I can Granny Clampett/herb doctor us through whatever illness we might take-on without seeking outside help in order to keep breathing. No miracle cure aspirations – let us just maintain strong enough vital signs and general life force to keep us out of hospitals or makeshift public health care arrangements.
    have never been like that before. Now I see how strong the FEAR is that keeps people from ever seeking medical attention …

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  9. Tina Avatar
    Tina

    We all have to keep going as best we can .. if the going is driven by love it has to be OK. Emrie holding his baby goat beats fear.

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  10. Peggy McG Avatar
    Peggy McG

    Love and the continuing of life and making sure it goes forward safely despite the needs to still buy necessities.. it is hard but it can all be done only to the best of our abilities. Just going.

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  11. Laura R Avatar
    Laura R

    So much familial love. Sharing mother love can be tricky. Especially later.
    How lovely that Emrie listened to goat holding instructions and held her baby goat.

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  12. dee Avatar

    All the comings and goings do impose risk so I too understand Son’s concern. Isolation imposes risks, too. You know how people say “their work here isn’t done”? I get that about you. Be well.

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  13. grace Forrest Avatar

    everything feels a little kind of crazy

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  14. grace Forrest Avatar

    i read somewhere that the Universe says: Here’s a
    virus. Practice.

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  15. grace Forrest Avatar

    there is all of it…love, fear, so much is Unknowable

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  16. grace Forrest Avatar

    yes and he will not see you.

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  17. grace Forrest Avatar

    i look forward to talking more with him

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  18. grace Forrest Avatar

    she didn’t believe us…didn’t have a way to believe us,
    that Caroline with give us babies from her body.
    and then she SAW

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  19. grace Forrest Avatar

    my waryness has always been a dominate force…lucky for
    me, i never needed more than what i could find on my
    own.
    This will be different

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  20. grace Forrest Avatar

    or made it make some kind of sense

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  21. grace Forrest Avatar

    doing the very BEST we can, yes.

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  22. grace Forrest Avatar

    she is so so great that way…i love this about her.
    If she’s notsure, she asks again

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  23. grace Forrest Avatar

    isolation is impossible, from them….

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