i woke yesterday to this in the email. From Marti. I'll let her talk about it in a comment, but it was such a JOY and i felt lightened to see and listen about it. This pic is from the screen of the laptop. It is SO MUCH MORE in her photograph.
had many thoughts and went about the morning feeling full of possibilities and then mid morning sirens came and went…we are just close to that highway to everywhere around here, a main artery, and there were sirens. Ears prick and you continue what your doing but listen for their direction and the
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so. without all that led up to it….Alyssia and Emrie had come to change the ice. By then, a full out Fire, Close, Miners Ranch and Mt. Ida. The sky became FULL of circling planes and helicopters….flying LOW, one plane causing a Pine here to sway and Emrie and i Waved and Called Out…..HELLLLLOOOOOOO! THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!! over and over. Alyssia watched the alerts on her phone and talked to Jenny. In the midst of calling out, Emrie and i brought her blocks out to the table and built castles and bridges. The Goats pulled In to themselves and came up here, by the door. Puppie came up from down at A.
it went on for 3 hours. They were taking water from the creek canal just up the way. Refilling for the drops. I don't know how many fire trucks were involved…more than 4 and they are BIG. A t one point, Alyssia decided to leave and go pick up Julian from her house in town in case in case they cut off traffic to the Hill. But right about then, it slowed and quieted. it was 8:45. No need for them to come back. it was Over.
i looked again, at dusk, Marti's cloth. Sun Flower
i left very early this morning to give water at A and B. just in case. I saw that all the Tall Grasses over Tazmeena's grave had become dry and flat and i pulled them and tossed them over the fence to the Goats. Mostly RattleSnake Grass…the nutritious seed pods. I'd forgotten the shell. I'd woken with none of the sense of possibility, of Joy, but rather trepidation because i'd not gone to water B in all the comotion, a 100 degree day, the GREEN BEANS, the just planted Malabar seeds. But i found all to be well. And even more than well. Things….appeared to…..have….GROWN? Spent then a long time at A. Repotted the grapefruit tree and avacado in large landscape pots i'd brought from N Mex. Watered long and deep. Listened to the new Morning Dove that has come for Jenny. She loves them. And i thought and cried no cry for her and us….she had come from Chico last eve. Was somewhere in Oroville, alyssia said…"somewhere", and i know where that somewhere was, am sure of it…was down at Lakeside where all the FireFighting was Staging, there in the parking lot, ready to drive through if they evacuated us. Cry, no cry, tears well up writing this. She couldn't come here according to the Rona Agreement. She was there, like 2 minutes away, and she couldn't come and stand with us, yelling Love up to the SkyFliers….we couldn't be together
from later today. stenographer's notebook. I'd thought all along that i'd been uhhhhh, preparing for something. Something i thought would be of Value. A lifetime of preparing for something that would be of Value. It was all about me. Because i thought that. Here i am. almost over. and i never found the something or got "there". Yesterday, there was no urge to load things up in case. I just thought….we'll load the Goats. the cat carrier, Talkie's travel crate is Ready, under the table where Emrie and i were building castles and bridges and yelling love to firefighters in the sky. I have the black bag with important papers…it sits there in that back room. Everything else, i guess i would leave? i guess, cause there was no thought to load anything. none. This surprises me today.
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