windthread

Jeff,  my grandson,  Alyssia's Brother,  my daughter's Son,  Father of Jaxon who i call Fate,  his woman T,  their daughter Brinley and T's brother Casey who is blind among other things came.   They came from where they live near Sacramento  to get fire wood.   They have a fireplace.    It's been maybe since Spring since they came….maybe longer?   A long time.  We wore our masks and kept our distance.   Who would have ever imagined this?   But that's for a different time.

and i think,  just in this MOMENT of writing this…..they came for    FIRE WOOD.   Solstice eve.    How we all,  unbeknownst to ourselves follow the thread.   Family.   Firewood.  Fire.

i suddenly thought……Maybe?   groped around under the bathroom sink and YES!,  there in the far back behind the wet cardboard box of surgical gloves,    …………………..YES………………..and EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee    this candle.

this candle,  brought from New Mexico,    incense.   solitude.   Solitude again,   the very real solitude of this life of December 20,  2020,  this Solstice Eve.