windthread

when i woke this morning,  i lay there,  still,  for a while,   and then remembering what i had left before sleep.  I lay there,  thinking that i would need to be mindful.   to not be consumed.   I first held this Cloth.  and then i began reading.   Through the day i kept reading,  and kept picking up this Cloth that is so weightless,  so Beauty Full…i wish i could photograph it as it IS,  a Green cloth….the thin,  so thin Deb Lacativa linen that is many nuances of GREEN that does not appear at all that way in these pics,  i don't know why and no matter what i do,  i cannot get  to the truth of the  Green….and i thought how i need somehow to find some balance.   Because i had all the ingredients at the same time which is unusual,  i cooked.   Aloo Gobi Matar and the fragrance swirled and i read and i held the Cloth and i acknowledged that i am very Off…..

for a long time there's been so much to absorb about  ……….civil discourse……   how to bring empathy and kindness into spaces of complete disagreement…finding the common ground

I watched videos  of yesterday.  Watched people there.  Watched the one who thought he was sitting at N  Pelosi's  desk,  putting his feet on it and  "scratched my balls"  ….leaving a note "for the bitch"   and i thought…where is our common ground.   And as i continued watching i realized that probably many if not most of the individuals that surged through those halls were feeling JOY.   That for them,  it was a great Success.    a great success.    an achievement greater than anything they might even have hoped.   And this brought me to a halt.    There is mob mentality.  There is  hive mind.   but what i was seeing was Happiness.  . I thought about how they took his day….Raphael Warnock's Day.   As quickly as it was there,  it was stolen.   

Common Ground.   Civil Discourse.

i need to find some kind of balance but i also need to CARE deeply.  To turn away dishonors so much.  

So this is where i am.