windthread

she came just before 10 am.   Alyssia has 3 papers to complete by the weekend.   The mission was to have a day and STAY AWAKE so she would sleep well tonight since Alyssia is up,  well into and sometimes through the night.  We began by following the Goats.

she wants to do what everyone else is always doing.  in this instance,  taking my pic.  She directed me.  Stand on the Grandmother Rock.  Like that.   click.  She looked at it on my phone…and was satisfied.   It worked for me.  I hadn't combed my hair.  

we wandered slow,  looking at things.  She was the Leader,  choosing the paths we took.   We climbed things,  made our way through downed branches,  followed Goat Paths noting how we are taller than them,  but how they show the way.  She learned a trillion things…how to go slow,  one step at a time.  How it is to be afraid to do what you want to…ie climb up and along that huge downed tree that scared her in the spring,  how to take one foot up at a time,  wait,  think,  look,  wait more and then place the next foot,  the next hand forward,  to be afraid,  but breathe through it.   Over and Over because we had all day.  And these ferns…how Goats are not the Greatest because they eat them but we found some…sheltered in the brush.  Saved.

She almost made it.    Not quite.   At the Everything Table…around 6 oclock.  and then her mother came.

I think now,   in the quiet of her gone,  about all the trashcrap going on….wasting Life    There is so much to CARE FOR,  so many children,  how Emrie is so Free of so much that others are not….How I am.  How we had this so Great Day in the midst of

such grief