windthread

jenny will be coming.  Any time and i need to be ready.   

But

Stuff says….take that small Cloth out from behind and pin it to the Front……..LOOK

Some things had merged simultaneously….things about         communication      about      connection     about more,  that i don't know

and already,  tonight,  i am distanced from it.   Distanced enough so i can't catch hold of exactly how it was,  how it happened,  how it FELT    and all there is to do is just WAIT until someThing happens again

but it was the first time.   I know the uh…..definition…..dissociative state….from all the years working in Psych.   But this was  FOR me….it was not how i'd previously understood the phenomena….and maybe….i think now….all those years…????maybe it was also FOR those who were  "reporting" such????????   What a LOSS,  if so.    

i am too far from it already to be able to touch what it brought….Jenny came….we trimmed Goat hooves…got 8 done…HUGE effort….of heart and of body….we used that kennel that has sat there since it arrived doing Nothing,  but to day,  we went in there and lured them in one by one and i was the "milkstand"….i held them with my legs,  my knees….facing their tails…held them firmly to prevent escape but not too much so that they were startled and fearful…had to hang on to the chain link of the kennel …they are STRONG….almost stronger than i can hope to be…they ARE stronger,  but they are Goats and they acquiessed because i also dribbled  alfalfa pellets into a bowl …Jenny sat on the ground and lifted one leg then the next…four per Goat X  8 is 32 hooves trimmed….Sonny Ray…that's another story,  over there in his space…him too and his hooves were curled inward…not good…but now they are opened and right

tonight.   i am so ThankFULL.   to just experience all this.

it was a HUGE DAY.   

ADDEMDUM!!!!!!!!!!     I found the mails i was looking for….All is Well.