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as an example.    of  what i am trying to work with.    

those folders….in them….this  bookmark of a drawing i'd made,  that was somewhere back in some years,  somewhere back in those manila folders.   Do not know where the original drawing is.        But this morning,  it was propped up against the paper bag here on the Morning Everything Table as SUN rose and at this perfect moment,  the bag….which contains bulbs for Egyption Walking Onions,  the mailing bag,   was Set AGLOW.   Illuminated.   ILLUMINATED  with this drawing leaning into it   and i was filled with………..filled with………what?    I was filled with how it is to be alive.   To just live.  Moment to moment and in those moments,  always hoping i can 

do better

but i don't.   do better.  or i SOME do better.   But i can't find the place that i call Better.    Where i just

Am.

i don't allow mySelf to be there.  Where i just am.   Where….as Emrie instructs….we don't know because it has never happened before…..so we just say that.   I am where i have never been before.   and go.   

 

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12 responses to “a paper bag”

  1. Mo Crow Avatar
    Mo Crow

    “Shine on you crazy diamond!”
    Pink Floyd from a long time ago…

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  2. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    Being present, witnessing a simple, sacred ordinary moment as in the sun illuminating a paper bag, your drawing as witness, to my way of thinking and feeling is to be better, is to do better because how many can take the time to stop and notice and you do, stop and notice so much on your hill, in your heart, in your mind…well you would say, we are old, have the time to do so and yes, but some of us, just go about our days on the surface…you do not.
    Now having said this, I imagine also that the hyper vigilance needed during fire season makes day to day living hard, not able to ease back, ease in, breathe without that hitch…to my way of thinking, to be “better” is to acknowledge when we think we fall short and when we think we go forward; in other words to acknowledge that we are human and simply, do the best we can at any given moment…

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  3. Liz A Avatar
    Liz A

    I am here … thinking, pondering … trying to find the words for what this has awoken

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  4. Deb G Avatar
    Deb G

    I have thought for a long time that one of the greatest gifts that the young give us is the moment, to be in the very moment that is happening. Nothing else, but to just be. This is beautiful Grace.

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  5. maria Avatar
    maria

    mooie woorden … Ooo sorry … beautiful words given by beautiful people , people who give attention on what/wath ? live IS , i can’t sleep leg hurts and i came awille beïng with you people, after i go back to bed to sleep there is a lot of wind outside … wath a luck it is’t inside … i hear the early morning train it’s 3.17 clock a owl fly over woehoe woehoe he speaks….

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  6. Hazel Avatar
    Hazel

    Beautiful! I keep coming back to “I don’t know. This has never happened before” Remembering teaching, and the joy of the not knowing and excitement of what might be. This holds some of what I’m feeling in these new unknown days.

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  7. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    WE all….

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  8. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    yes. the best we can at any given moment. YES.
    but i want it to be the best i can. and i think
    i can find the way to that.

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  9. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    i like the word
    ponder
    pondering

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  10. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    yes. it’s a great freedom, i think….to fully
    appreciate that given moment, to honor what IS. to have
    each moment as they come be Enough. As Is.
    it’s
    reality.

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  11. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    an ache, Great Wind, the train….the owl flies over
    speaking to you
    thank you for giving Us this picture
    from our nights to yours in Belgium
    i send love to your leg.

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  12. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    how lucky we are…to walk into the Unknown

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