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there it was…a layered sky  blue,  pink,  blue again then  pink again and then a roseorange.  I've never seen this sky before.  and there was the Something Else…that  hazy brightness.   It would be the last day of Sun now for many to come.    I went down to A Garden,  the Wall Garden that i had abandoned.   Yesterday and the day before there had been WIND,  almost like New Mexico Wind…Gusts.   I picked up what had been thrown around,  covered the mower, righted the chairs.  The "sail" roof of the A frame shade house had held.  John Lewis blown over but the Avacado stood.   The cardboard pieces and flattened boxes were strewn about and i collected them,  cut them into shapes and weighted them with rocks in half of the Wall Garden.  We need more and when there's another Sun day,  i'll finish.  Cover them bucket by bucket with Goat manure through Winter.    A small pile of cardboard i left.  There was a Huntsman Spider under the top one… she was startled  and i left her alone.    Then i sat.    Thought about  how what we and then I  had imagined,  had changed.    Noticed how i had no need to  create any story of that.  It simply is what it is.  For Now.   Thought about how that's a real accomplishment,   not needing to make something of what simply is.

on the way back up at B Garden,  the one tomato plant had blown over for the second time.  4 of her green tomatoes fallen off.  The heavy laden yellow cherry tomato  crashed over .    Arms from one of the overly tall  Paul Robeson's  hung down,  on the tomato cage of  fencing i'd made.   Didn't break.  just bent….but may break or pull the whole thing over if there's more Wind.   The food plants People are winding down,  have given their all.   Quiet now.    Still very alive,  but Quietly.  

Alyssia came very late last night with ice.  Both girls in their car seats,  Shiny metallic balloons floating above them,   Emrie is wild of words,  Brinley is full of questions…Where are the Goats,  Why does the Dog do that,  Emrie throwing her words to take up all the space,  to drown out Brinley's questions.   Emrie yells,   "I told her every thing already".    They had left at noon to pick up the vehicle that will replace the stolen catalytic converter truck.  From there,  on down to Sacramento to get more things from The House.  Feed the ducks that are still there,  then meet T's mother at a funeral home to make The Arrangements.   It was 8pm when they brought the ice.  Set inside the door,  then gone.   Less than 5 minutes and i ached for Emrie.    Today on phone,  Alyssia told how Brinley has attached to Emrie.   How Emrie has become attached to Alyssia's whereabouts.  How Fate called his father from his mother's,  wanting to come back for another night.  He did.    

We will make our way.  We know nothing but that.  That we will make our Way.   Today is Julian's 12th Birthday.   i made him a failed cornbread that i sent with Alyssia.   so he'd know i'd tried.  He loves cornbread.   

 

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13 responses to “magic”

  1. maria Avatar
    maria

    wind and our things playing do there thing.
    your people going there way and take you with them in mind in energy in heart even they don’t know yet
    Ooo it’s so good to know to feel all those connecthing ” the line”

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  2. grace Forrest Avatar

    it is. SO GOOD to know
    to be a part of what it Is…to only know Love for sure

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  3. Liz A Avatar

    to know love … is everything

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  4. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    Attaching – the need to hold together and you do because this is how you go on…
    Fascinating to learn of this interplay between Emrie and Brinley; from wondering how it would be to be with another child to in essence, becoming somewhat of a “big” sister to Brinley, even though they are the same age. It will be so interesting to see how Emrie shares and shows Brinley all that she knows about the Hill, etc.
    “Failed cornbread:- no because love and thoughtfulness were mixed in. Happy Birthday Julian from a grandmother who also knows 12 yr olds. 12, the age betwixt and between but these days 12 is already a teenager.
    October, a most special month for birthdays: In my family alone, there are 6 birthdays this month. Next week my girls turn 51 yrs old and I sit with this, remembering…how unexpected to find ourselves the parents of twins. Just when you think you have your family story figured out, along comes the unexpected. For us, the birth of our twin girls was both the trick and treat of October because we had no clue we were having twins and no one could remember twins in our family.

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  5. Faith Avatar

    It looks magical in the photo and brings to mind and old song line: “Magical, mystical, miracle” I sense something weaving in, around and through you, your family. It’s not something visible with the eyes, but I imagine it like the stream of sparkles a Disney movie shows for magic. I’m pretty sure it is LOVE, or LOVE filled.

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  6. Nancy Avatar

    Beautiful sky and story of Wind and Family. The layers that have been taking place for all of you as you move through this time. I was struck thinking what it would feel like to suddenly ‘share’ the Hill, that had been all yours (for the most part) for your 4 short years. Today in a training they commented on the idea of what if we counted the children’s ages in months, not years…and how that would send a stronger message of just how short a time they’ve been here, gaining life experiences. And Julian…can he be 12 already?! Wow! All of those years ago in NM and calling you Old Nana and, and, and.
    Love to you and your family xo

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  7. grace Forrest Avatar

    yes, that line…that thread….Pulsing

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  8. grace Forrest Avatar

    turning 51. almost impossible to think, isn’t it.

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  9. grace Forrest Avatar

    interesting that you say this. I have no set belief about
    what comes of us after death. But i DO believe that the energetic essence of living things, does not die with the
    leaving of the physical form. That it is something more.
    and as any one who knew her might recognize….T is that stream of sparkles…she loved iridescence, glitter, sparkle. Thank you for this. it’s perfect. I can
    see her here. Among us.

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  10. grace Forrest Avatar

    i exhale. for now, i am alone here. Jeff has been a no Vax
    person. His presence brings all that. I have no idea about
    Fate’s family situation. So, for now, they come and go quickly
    with nothing but words shared into and out of the car. How this will all play out is unknown.
    yeah. Julian. 12. He’s taller than i am.

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  11. Nancy Avatar

    I think I’ve run out of New Words for these times were in. Big Love to you.

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  12. grace Forrest Avatar

    yes. running out of words for it all….
    very much.

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