her hairline. little decorator braids. her eyebrows and eye lids. Her dancing fingers. Her love of how things Balance, her understanding that they balance because they Want to, that you can Offer something, but there needs to be mutuality for it to work…she instinctively KNOWS that and is good with it…her immediate focus on the stones…the ones she brought in and the ones on the window ledge that she hasn't touched in weeks, she went directly, without hesitation, to this and only when it was complete. complete. did she demonstrate things she'd learned in her gymnastics class.
today, 4 years ago, was the first day i woke up here. in California, on a Hill. For so long prior to that, i'd imagined living my time out there in New Mex. Jenny had always joked that she would just come and bring me. Willing or not. When i was too old to resist. So we agreed to that, but then….after getting a gynecological Tune Up, a new IUD, all systems go, and Alyssia set out to visit he who turns out to be Emrie's father, set out for 4 days with someone she enjoyed spending time with, who she really liked as a Person, and came home
pregnant
and then….all the craziness with the Trisomy 13 markers…???? and she struggled….and KEPT. she would go forward. They say for maybe a year, the infant might live, and i thought….i need to. I need to be there to do what i can do for that year and the decision was made that i would go/come. And then Emrie was born. She had a brain, she had a complete face. She had all functioning organs. and what turns out to be a deep affinity for things of the Earth. Emrie. Emrie Grace Jimenez.
and here we are. Droughts, Evacuations, pandemic woven into Incredible Beauty. This pic is Emblematic.
the second of the 4 stones. i continue to look at how i live. The morning times and i see them more and more clearly. How i need to continue with the News…need to know how it is with the World…every day and also what and where i look to, to find
to find
to find how to go forward. the news, which is endlessly HARD and Harder, and then…i go to my Cloth Family. I see who has sent word. i read and breathe. and to beloved NPR that shows me a differing face of the NEWS, what is needed but what is also SO NEEDED, for instance today, the Scott Simon interview with Daniel Lanois, his album, Heavy Sun in which he, D Lanois speaks of how " the spontaneity has been taken from us" and i go to Utube and listen there the sound rising up and out, into this Hill in the morning as Talkie lurches down from her twig
and the whole album is on UTube and i listen to Please Don't Try, Let it Come
and On Being, the conversation with Vivek Murthy and Richard Davidson, The Future of Well Being 12/2/2021 where, the Surgeon General of these United States…who'dve guessed….quotes Mary Oliver's Wild Geese.
"….you only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves."
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