20220329_083644

i would have.   but my "mind" wept.     With….surprise,  amazement and just some kind of Love,  a sentient consciousness for what it is to be human in this world we have created,  and  are creating,   in 2022.  In a world where we can evolve forward or back and which will prevail is unknown and really,  unknowable as it goes

i watched the light as Sun  rose and flowed in across this cloth in front of me and suddenly…i saw.    When nothing was coming,  when i was feeling empty of reason to make cloth,  empty of purpose and meaning


20220328_213054

the forms and colors     and then….the beloved strip of black and white,  some familiar forms but within a  uhhhh,   flow that feels more like some kind of language .   and i instantly recognized it.   and went back to the words of Elizabeth Gilbert,  in conversation with Pico Iyer,   OnBeing.  the Future of Hope 3    2021 Nov. 18

"I feel very strongly that there's an intelligence in the universe that wants to communicate with us, and I think that it tries to find us in however we are most…..that we can most find it."

how hearing  those words,   i felt them as so true to my own sense of how it is,  how things are presenting themselves in these last years for me,  how they so perfectly SAID a Truth that i know and do not know.   How i loved so much she said them.  how grateful i was hearing someone say the thing i sensed.     

"Wants to communicate with us"

for each of us,   different.   For me…creating pictures with scraps of cloth.   How i find and hold my place as it all unfolds.

these words are inadequate.   But it was an Emrie day so i was there,   in the Real of her.   I can continue now,  as i stitch.  Trying to listen well.

 

Posted in

15 responses to “if i could weep,”

  1. maria Avatar
    maria

    just a hug

    Like

  2. maria Avatar
    maria

    while i listen ( every morning ) to the song of the black bird

    Like

  3. grace Forrest Avatar

    black bird sings this

    Like

  4. grace Forrest Avatar

    that circles back

    Like

  5. maria Avatar
    maria

    the weeping

    Like

  6. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    This morning, I rise and look at the seeds in the peat pots: (they are on the dresser in the bedroom cause it is near a windows for warmth and light since I do not have grow lights). Practically overnight, many seeds are becoming seedlings, reaching up. This morning, I blinked and looked again, the first of the Hopi black dye sunflowers seeds has come up and this coming up, soothes and speaks a language all of its own- how to go.
    I think of seeing beautiful weeds and snippets of wildflwoers fiercely coming up on concrete cracks, coming up from gravel and I know that the language of the growing things offers resilience, strength and more importantly, hope.
    Last night I was out moving some pots around and a new neighbor, not in my complex but in the building next to ours, shouted hello and came over. Her apartment has no place for planting and she saw my planting patch out front and asked if I was planting. I said, yes, trying to but the soil was iffy and the seeds might not take but it was worth trying. She sighed and said she had so hoped to be able to plant at least a tomato and I told her she could; she could plant tomatoes in pots as we did. She has a little boy who plays with the little boy next to us and she wants so much for her husband and son and herself to be able to grow a few plants together. She was happy when she realized that you can grow things in pots. Told her that the tree in front of our place has apples, very tiny apples but she and her boy were welcome to pick some when they came, if the birds left any for us.She laughed and thanked me…
    Plants, weeds, flowers, trees, they all teach us and speak of inclusion and that is quite the conversation…

    Like

  7. jude Avatar

    sense is an interesting thing.

    Like

  8. CatherinE Avatar

    And it so often speaks through materials. I don’t listen closely enough. Thanks for reminding me to listen.

    Like

  9. grace Forrest Avatar

    i love this so so much Marti…how things can sometimes
    go that ripple OUT…giving so much to so many of Us…
    that she came to your Garden.
    I just love this. It was a beam of love and Light to my
    heart, lifting me
    I look forward to the story that will rise out from this

    Like

  10. grace Forrest Avatar

    it is, isn’t it. Sense. Maybe the most fine tuned of
    them all.

    Like

  11. grace Forrest Avatar

    we can “go places”

    Like

  12. Laura Avatar
    Laura

    Oh, Grace. I, too, keep looking for distractions from the news that I keep watching. My mind weeps, and leaks out of my eyes.
    Granddaughter, 2, is in ER. Isn’t there always something?
    Love to you and Sunny Ray.

    Like

  13. grace Forrest Avatar

    Laura….the child?

    Like

Leave a comment