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how did it go?     

for me.

 

 What was profound from the first moment,   the sense of We.   I am used to being alone at that time of the beginning of the day.   There was a surprisingly Strong sense of We…of Not Alone.   i was surprised.   it was Strong.    Sitting for me means opening to an Emptiness and i moved into that….a Full Emptiness     but where i was not alone.     Sometimes i would lapse into the Mani Meditation…Om Mani Peme Hung (tibetan pronounciation)  but i pulled from that,  wanting to be instead in some consideration of Trust,  some knowing of Fear,   but  it did not last and there was just an energetic emptiness…strange words….but what seem to best convey how it felt…   and i would just follow the Breath.   At some point i thought…Oh! 5 minutes and looked and it was 9.   And there it was.   

I went on with the day,   just Feeling it,  trying not to give thought form.    But at the end of the day,  i realized  that

There was no room for Fear in those moments.  Fear could find no place.   The space was Full.  

so this was it.   the other thing i do know is that i very much look forward to next Thursday.   

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  1. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    So I thought about where I would be next Thurs. I know that I want to be outdoors but the patio area is not a place for these 5 minutes and then I realized that I have a perfect little space.
    We have a large gravely backyard, nothing is growing but on the side, after you open our gate, a former tenant planted a little grapevine. Reaching across from the other apartment side is a canopy of sumac branches, providing a bit of shade and a feeling of a spirit filled space.
    What came to me so strongly and maybe it is because of Jude’s photos of tendrils on her blog, was how this little grapevine sends out tendrils that wrap around the wire structure, helping the grapevine grow and produce. How it may be only 5 minutes, once a week, but the communal impact, of all of our tendrils, is such a support and because it is, notions of fear are faced and quietly let go to the best of our ability.AND we stretch and intuitively trust in ourselves and in this togetherness and because we do, we grow in ways probably not yet realized…

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  2. CatherinE Avatar
    CatherinE

    Beautiful words, Grace and Marti. I felt a strong sense of togetherness too. It almost brought tears to my eyes, but I wasn’t sad.

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  3. Peggy McG Avatar
    Peggy McG

    Yes.. togetherness prevailed! Trust was the focus which allowed no space for fear. Today I woke after fearful dreams and immediately said outloud Trust! Very calming..

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  4. Jan Rowan Avatar
    Jan Rowan

    May I join you in the 5 minutes of sitting with trust? I love this….

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  5. Faith Junaid Avatar
    Faith Junaid

    I missed the specific 5 minutes yesterday, but have off and on, since you asked about it, spent a minute or more considering trust. For me, trust is a powerful element of faith and I have been praying. This week my son has been moving by U-Haul from Mt. Pleasant, MI to Columbia, MO — driving his car with his cats to MO, taking the bus back to MI (which ended up with a 7+ hour delay in Chicago and overnight in Kalamazoo), packing the truck yesterday and the final drive to MO today. Tomorrow they unpack the truck and repack into his partner’s apartment guestroom until they move into a house in August. So I’m still praying/trusting for his safe arrival in MO in the next two to four hours. (I don’t know when he left MI.)
    I also was vacillating between fear and trust for my sister whose mammogram necessitated a biopsy. It was originally scheduled for the 29th, but the doctor pushed it ahead to Tuesday. She got her results faster than expected, too. All negative.
    All this reminded me, again, that every time I fear what is at hand, trust is what I need. ALWAYS, what I fear either never happens, or is nothing as bad as I feared, or I am strong enough to handle the storm.

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  6. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    yes. probably not yet realized.
    this is Perfect.

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  7. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    the FeltSense

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  8. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    Trust!
    Trust!

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  9. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    Jan…i knew you would if you could…oh….so much YES!

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  10. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    i am interested in your Prayer….how you Pray…to
    Who?
    i was born in MIchigan, Detroit…i know Mt. PLeasant
    and Kalamazoo

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