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on Solstice She let go

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just past B Garden,  just on the side of this little meadow where Old Cowboy's Mother's rocking chair,  lawn chair is that holds his box of stuff…his slippers,  teeth,  glasses.    Alyssia had to move branches to drive up.   Maybe 70ft.  at least.

i heard it.   was just waking,  First Light,   i thought it was closer and i looked but couldn't see.  Thought maybe i dreamed it.  But i heard the sound of it ripping off.   

 


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right at Earth.   a just Letting Go.   For maybe a hundred years,  Vertical and then…just Letting Go.   

 


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the Feeling of it

 

Tomorrow is Thursday again.   Trust Time.    and where i've come in these 6 days….about Trust…..is simple in a way,  but in a way so not.   What i think i can Trust:   Everything seems to hang in a balance of 50/50.  the degrees over can change the game.  In these days now.    and i can Trust that there are enough on "my" 50 side to

hold

so far.

and that part of my Trusting is that i am constant in my effort to be     Kind.   to be   Genuine.   to share kindness and a Real as i move in this world.  At every opportunity.  so that the other 50% can feel it and be touched by it.   To feel the good of kindness and Real,  how it can soften Fear.   Small ways like when i set out tomorrow morning as early as i possibly can…to make my way to the Dollar Store and then Lakeside Grocery.   To say…no…you go first….to smile behind the mask….to exchange any words that create a real exchange of human ness.,  goodwill.   to Grow my 50%.   This is a clumsy effort to give words to a lot of thought but it's all i've got.  it's Hot.   And i thought about how we made such effort to eradicate  indigenous people from this continent but it didn't prevail.   They held on.  And today,  teach their languages to the young.  Teach pride.  Deb Haaland is Secretary of the Interior.  Love that term…the Interior…a native woman,  Secretary of the Interior,  i smile…. but then,  there is the Decision from the Supreme Court…these words seeming fake….Supreme Court…story like….but they will decide.   because it's what we agree to…a  "Supreme"   Court…  And then…we have a Committee to investigate Lying.   at greatlength.  Emrie is learning about lying.  she is 4.   but we have a Committee.  a country of adults…has a committee.   ok.   what can i do.   what can i do to sustain the balance?   to allow it to hold,   that we don't fall into that world of Octavia Butler's  premonition .     today would be her birthday.  75 years old.   Dee told me that.

 

 

 

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  1. jude Avatar
    jude

    This letting go, I hear it from deep in the forest, often with wind but more often in the deep silent light. that sound, the breaking, ripping, the thunder of fall. Sometimes I find, sometimes just know and never see.
    These days, I try now to engage with everyone I meet here. Not to ask them hard questions. Just to trust in their humanity. Simple courtesy is rarely misunderstood.
    The plumber will be here during trust time. Mr. Miller. The guy (recommended by tree guy) who came to look at the well filter and then told me what to buy and is coming back to teach me how to change it myself, no charge. The guy who said fairness builds trust, greed will kill us all.
    Supreme is seriously a strange concept.

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  2. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    Watched something on PBS the other day that has stayed with me all week long: Years ago, Jane and Michael Stern traveled the country learning about road food. Now a new series, Road Food, Discovering America, One Dish at a Time, with Misha Collins, takes off where they left off. The episode that stayed with me:
    Misha goes to the San Carlos Apache Reservation in Arizona and meets Twila Cassadore. Twila is a “forager and historical knowledge preservationist”. She grew up foraging and hunting with her Dad. She shows Misha a barrel cactus that is blooming. She tells him that when the little pineapple looking buds appear, you can eat them. Misha eats one and says it has the taste of tomatillo.
    What moved me so much about this episode was when Twila explains that she is a “seed carrier” for her community. Her knowledge of foraging and edible foods is taught to the younger generation and they will teach the next generation and so forth…
    As I wait for 9 am this morning when I will go and stand near the little grapevine on the side of our yard, I think of this idea that we can all be seed carriers if we trust in ourselves, if we have knowledge that we can willingly share with each other…

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  3. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    Hmm, 2nd time that I got the time wrong…8 AM not 9 AM, really going to have to concentrate here because I am up so early in the morning and do my daily blessings, etc at daybreak. they say that 3 is the charm so hopefully next week, I will know that it is 8 AM for our Trust together time! Jeez!!

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  4. Deb G Avatar
    Deb G

    Thinking a lot about this. Trust and hope and resilience. That tree, now it will be a nurse log.

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  5. CatherinE Avatar
    CatherinE

    It is so acceptable and natural for trees to fall in the life cycle of the forest. A lesson. I was at the community garden during trust time today. I felt a bit awkward because another person was there – what if she wanted to talk to me while I was sitting! I should have known it would be fine if that happened. With regards to kindness, it did seem to flow easily at the garden today. I greeted a gardener I’ve never met and by some miracle, I remembered her name: Paulina. And I was able to chat with and encourage another three-generation family of gardeners, mother, daughter, and grandson. Just starting their planting. It’s been cold here.

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  6. Peggy McG Avatar
    Peggy McG

    I do not have a permanent place to sit and reflect, the inside of the van is too warm this morning. I found my way to a beach by a lake at a place called Paradise Park in Lindstrom MN. I played soothing meditative music on my phone and am working toward trusting my inner strength to share without fear of rejection and learning only I can know inside me. If my friendliness seems to be ignored or taken advantage of, I trust I will not let it overcome me, as their issues are theirs. I know I can trust in the beauty of nature and it soothes me. A fallen tree has not yet finished giving.

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  7. Faith Junaid Avatar
    Faith Junaid

    A fallen tree has not yet finished giving.
    I love that! It’s so true, both literally and symbolically.

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  8. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    to trust in Our humanity.
    hello, Mr.Miller

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  9. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    this is an important facet…trust in ourselves…
    to be
    trustworthy
    thank you for bringing this forward

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  10. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    you help me remember this. When i see downedtrees,
    i am inclined to think fire fuel. But if there is no
    fire, then, yes…new Life comes from them.
    thank you, Deb

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  11. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    This. This is trust. in OUR humanity in
    the commons of Garden

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  12. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    the Earth world….so much easier than the human
    but we are human Be ings…to practice and share with one another….
    i think of you there…at Paradise Park
    Love and Love to you, Peggy

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