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i'd loaded this pic early this morning,    6 something because again,  Internet is ify.   I'd imagined some things i might say.  It's Jenny's favorite vine that climbs from the base of the Scrub Oak at B.    and here…..here….we see…..2 blossoms this year.

 

and it is/was  Trust Time at 7oclock.   so i sat quietly    waiting .   7 Oclock.    the 5 minutes turned out to be 24.   

at the end,  i took up the pen and wrote on the stenographer's pad…Trust.   

Trust.  That i will have what it takes to love well.

What did that mean?,  to love well?  and without thought,  i wrote

to Trust.   

so  it began and circled around.    And i went into the day which was kinder,  heat wise but i had so little battery power because of circumstance and i'd miscalculated and was out of dog food and had to go take care of that and then late afternoon that horrible BLEATing sound from the phone which only had 27% left….FIRE.    It was 6 miles away and i called Jenny who had just gotten off from work to be sure she was aware.   Alyssia was on the road,  back from a medical appointment in Sacramento.   Jenny called back.   Could i  get the Goats into their Evac Spaces?  that she and her man were on their way.?    Yes and i did.   it took 28 minutes and then i began gathering Stuff to put in the vehicle.  whose name now is Friend.   to put in Friend.   and the reality is that it wasn't much.   I don't have any energy left  to  talk about it.   But it wasn't much at all.  I piled it on the bed.   Surprised.

but it was the best i could do. 

But all the while i thought about  Trust.   and what i know it is is that i Trust that we will do the best we can.   I Trust too,  in all of you,   in US ,  who i have somehow managed to come to know….that You All too,  do the best you can.   That the Whole of Us do the best we can and I Trust in that.

 

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29 responses to “different”

  1. jude Avatar

    it’s the only way it goes… just going, the best we can.

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  2. Mo Crow Avatar

    (((Grace))) Trust Love Hope

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  3. Tina Avatar
    Tina

    Trust .. you got me thinking about what is Trust? What does it really mean .. from a very young age due to childhood sexual abuse I’ve lived with major trust issues for the better part of my life. The older I get and with help from friends like you I’m starting to seeing trust in a new way. In the past I’ve always looked at trust as it relates to other .. now it’s more about trusting myself. Still finding it all confusing .. I’m a work in progress.
    Trusting that the fire has not reached the hill.

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  4. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    Trust that all, are safe and that if you all had to evacuate and go to sheltered places, that it will not be for long. Trust in self to stay calm and do what is needed and you did; the Trust meditation perhaps helping before the events of the day but then, you have always been steady, no drama, doing what presented in the moment. Trust also that others will do their part; that the community as it has done in the past, holds together.
    (2 fires burning, the Sandra and the Nelson, according to reports, some evac orders lifted for the Sandra fire.On the map, Old Olive Hwy about 14 miles from Forbestown, the site of the Sandra Fire.)

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  5. Joanne in Maine Avatar
    Joanne in Maine

    You can charge the phone while driving the car.

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  6. Deb G Avatar

    The best we can…yes. Sending love.

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  7. Nancy Avatar

    Grace…the best we can, at any given moment. Yes. Be well, be safe xo

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  8. Peggy McG Avatar
    Peggy McG

    You and family have the routine down.. when needed adrenaline kicks in and amazing strength comes through. I walked the Franconia Art Park near my old home town of Shafer MN on Wednesday morning. Found some sculptured benches covered in clay tiles hand decorated and glazed in many colors. This was to be my place of Trust Meditation for Thursday, however, Thursday morning brought thunderstorms. So I lay in bed and Breathed in Trust. I was on the same page, Trust is deep within myself. Hugs to all!

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  9. Irene Avatar
    Irene

    Trust is really hard when you’ve been raised in a metropolis and trained to be hyper-vigilant.

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  10. dee Avatar

    I’m am glad you have so much family there near the hill. Hope all is well. Also: gratitude for your initiating the Thursday morning Trust Meditation.

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  11. CatherinE Avatar

    I love the trust time. Envisioning your safety and well-being.

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  12. maria Avatar
    maria

    you are safe , to trust the fire is a big thing of trust , when it is needed , ask the wind to turn the direction , trust the wind ,trust the people who care the fire , i have trust in you in your energy , you have just enough ( i know it is really hard , you are tired ) you we do the best we can , i’ll be with you
    thank you al of you

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  13. grace Forrest Avatar

    it is deep, trust. seemed such a simple thing, but it’s not. is deep and thick and …..
    the statistic is 1 in 4 women….abuse.
    the statistic is 1 in 4 women….abuse
    repeat repeat repeat
    a work in progress is a very Beauty FULL thing

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  14. grace Forrest Avatar

    they called the evac. plane came. they are ON IT this year, more than ever before
    i am not knowing what to SEE about this TRuSt thing…???
    it’s more than i’d imagined in the beginning

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  15. grace Forrest Avatar

    yes. if i am driving.

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  16. grace Forrest Avatar

    “trust is deep within myself”
    repeat this
    many times
    that you are there…..in your HOME, which i now know…your home
    i love this so much, Peggy

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  17. grace Forrest Avatar

    to clarify…when i say Us and We, i mean those who come here. There are the many…out there…that are confusing and uhhhh, mean spirited?, frightening to me? How
    does any sense of Trust play into that?

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  18. grace Forrest Avatar

    thursday morning…a grounding, a Moment

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  19. grace Forrest Avatar

    friday night. We are
    SAFE

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  20. grace Forrest Avatar

    Maria, Maria, Maria i love you. Giant and BIG, i love you…over there…across the ocean…but HERE…right
    HERE

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  21. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    Thank you Maria for coming here. While you are far away, you are always with us in our hearts, in spirit and we trust that you are, and we love you.

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  22. Victoria Avatar
    Victoria

    I’m glad to hear that you and yours are all safe and away from danger. Hope you will be able to return to find everything well and good and intact on the hill.

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  23. Liz A Avatar

    thank you for gathering us together …

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  24. grace Forrest Avatar

    we didn’t actually have to go….we were just under
    warning
    not this time. we breathe.
    Thank You for the Energy of your Caring…it matters

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  25. grace Forrest Avatar

    we are Strong
    together

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