windthread

taken by lamplight,  late.

i reaized today that a Quilt

means a Quilt.

it's not just blocks of cloth pieced together,  but once there are enough,  they are set to the Ground and then….

quilted.

i have never done this.    i looked closely at the Tina Quilt,  felt it,  studied it.    What it means,   to  quilt.   

and i said i want to make two.   One for Jenny   another for Alyssia and Emrie to share.     

my life here has become completely oriented to Season.   OUT SIDE of me,    me,  being one with the Season,  part of it.   This coming Rain Season is so perfect for this.   Spring will not be,  so much.    There will be Garden of which i am part…as in,  i am Garden too.    So this will be it.  You might grow weary of it,   looking here,  but……oh well.   I am determined.

Today,  here,   7 brought me to a standstill.   I wanted to take it off.   i couldn't see any way forward.   Went back and forth from it.   and Alyssia an Emrie came to bring ice.   Emrie has a cold so we distanced.   She at the Umbrella Table,  Alyssia beyond in one of the plastic adarondiac chairs,  me in the patched folding camp chair.   Emrie painted and now and then told of School Things.   it was Easy….the exchanges….Alyssia and i,  with Emrie between…no one feeling any urgency,  just Easy.   I heard about the playground,  the cafeteria that had a good corn dog,  the new friend she said was named Cavity and we smiled and Alyssia said maybe Cassidy?,  but Emrie said no…Cavity.  But we kept with maybe not and i suggested she ask her tomorrow again.  She agreed to.   And Isaiah is in a different class now.  But Martin is still there and one of the mean girls threw a rock at him.   Martin is a main player in this kindergarten class.   He comes up a lot.   Either causing some trouble or receiving it.   And she spent some effort telling and then showing me how Miss Joyce goes about with her Walker.   Different in the classroom than on the playground where she lifts it up.   Demonstration.   We talked a little about how sometime soon she might go stay many sleepover days with her Dad in Texas.   How she has so many,  Family,  there that want her to come.  And how it might be a little hard.   and i said like kindergarten was at first.   And she connected totally….Yes,   i cried 3 days and i didn't want Ms Johnson to go to lunch.   yes…and how do you remember that now?……"i didn't need to.   Everything is Ok".  Everything is Good."

She painted 3 pictures.  Variations on a Theme of  a LARGE rainbow,  with rain falling,  a SUN.  People underneath.  One for me,  one for Nana (Jenny)  one for Alyssia.   All same theme,  but all different.  When she left,  she asked me to draw a picture for her.  Paint it.   This person is very different than the one just a few weeks ago.

back to the above.   7 was hard.   i tried over and over.   But then after they left,  i tried again and 10 reconciled.

there  might be storms tonight.