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i would have imagined that the last summer season of so many 100+  days might have had an affect on the forest.    In just these couple weeks of Rain Season,   Lichen and Moss  seem somehow…energized?    This is an Oak that is just along the road Up  near the entry to the Doe Forest.   It's alive and all leafed in upper branches.   But even more green than it appears here.   In the morning Sun when i go there to feed Jack Flash and Nogal,   it is a VIBRANT  green,   the two communities intermingled.   I'll try for a close up in next few days.  The next 2 are forcast  Rain.

 


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i looked.   the old Blogspot pages are Still There!…as in still floating ,   in tact.   From beginning,  April 2010.  So that makes the blogging going on 13 years!        huh.

in the beginning it was intermittant but i was all so crazy happy with Spirit Cloth…Everything was NEW     Everything i 

made

was New.   Never before.   

somewhere along the line i  decided to post everyday,   to underline for my Self,  really,  that Every Day there is something to celebrate.   and this continues to be true.   And over time,  i kept posting every day because i felt that if it was intermittant,  it could easily fall away.   and that is possible.    Lately with the repetition of the making being only the Spirals,   how this will continue at least until all of them are finished,  which means   for both    Jenny's and Alyssia's,   50 of them and then their becoming 2 Blankets….   that's a lot of repeating.   But it's what my Making IS now and needs to be.    and too    i find that i have fallen into a kind of laziness with words…minimizing  how i Tell of things that are extremely important to me.   ???   Why?.   maybe just that fact that over these years i have become accustomed to the tap it out on the phone thing?   no,  that's too easy…maybe because i have become more and more drawn in by things that allude simple explanation and yet not willing to take the time to truly TELL?   …make the effort?…..TRY to Tell?     Because it might not make sense to anyone but me?   ???

the above…what i wrote as Last Thought.     it directly correlates with something in  Ways of Being.   "the Richardson effect"…   So much of that book,  of what James Bridle presents as story into story out of story into story  is 

what i have been thinking about….but he goes so  DEEP  and with so much story of How Things Came To Be,   How Things continue to Come to Be More,   all the knowing that i don't have and can never hope to.    Maybe if i can somehow find a path that way?

I have completed the 77th year.   

what that means to me is actually turning out to be impossible to say.  But it's all the above and then more.   But it's 

done.

time ahead now,   different.   I can travel lighter,  go deeper.   Stay longer.   Not stay at all.    

the words in that sentence  above….came spontaneously….16 words….adding up to 7.   and i smile.   Of course they would.

PLEASE go listen :   

Rumblestrip   Erica Heilman   today's podcast….Nature's Top Deck with Forrest Foster

 

 

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16 responses to “journal”

  1. Lindy Avatar
    Lindy

    Thanks always for sharing. I read Robin Wall Kimmerer “Gathering Moss” this summer. I got it as an ebook from the library. Your mossy tree reminded me of it. Have you read it?

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  2. CatherinE Avatar

    I get so much from your blog, Grace. A paradox that happens: Trying to Tell can be a worthwhile struggle, but then 16 words show up spontaneously. I will think about this some more.

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  3. Deb G Avatar

    A very good conversation on Rumble strip. Ways of Being is so rich in connections for me. After reading the last chapter on language, I am thinking about how children learn language…. And I really believe we sometimes need repetition to go deeper, to understand better. 🙂

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  4. Mo Crow Avatar

    (((Grace))) may you have many more turns around the sun!

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  5. Peggy McG Avatar
    Peggy McG

    Capture the day in increments, as it presents itself. I love how sunlight or shadow can change a mossy tree! Each second is a different view, a different thought. My mind cannot hold it all, so a summary has to do. My new phone’s camera was stuck on “Live” and I didnt notice it. Until I wanted to share pictures and realized they were all mini movies.. taking up space in my memory storage… so I had to edit.. well now, which of the 6 or 7 shots was The Best .. hard decisions. Your content here, becomes our glimpse into your life, your mind, and another pixel into the bigger picture. Same is never Same.

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  6. Peggy McG Avatar
    Peggy McG

    Another thought.., a childhood memory, as I read and listen to books and podcasts suggested by you, Deb G and within others blogs who comment here, So many years ago.. I asked my Dad is it possible to think that in Dr. Seuss’s book Horton Hears A Who, that there are tiny worlds within others? He said not exactly.. but yes.. I now know so much more, microbes and symbiosis.. and even how rocks form.. so excited to be watching facebook accounts of the volcanic action in Hawaiian Islands! We are living in an amazing section of time!

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  7. Nancy Avatar

    Grace~ The lightest, brightest parts on that tree trunk are the color my teen bedroom carpet was! Like light grass 🙂 I loved it.
    I read as you reflect/share this time in your life. Sometimes, maybe a bit confused and other times nodding in agreement. I wonder to myself: do I have a year that means something to me? A turning point? An event? So far, no. I just keep trudging along. Maybe working full time makes it feel different.
    That Rumble Strip was a good one…very bittersweet to me, knowing/feeling aging w/ J. His outlook was interesting to hear. I also listened to “The Neighborhood” (10:45 min), which was the childhood end of a lifespan…which is my life every day, both ends. Mmm.
    (((hugs)))

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  8. grace Forrest Avatar

    Hey, Lindy! i have not and i need to. Thank You
    for bringing it here….
    do you have a lot of moss and lichen?

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  9. grace Forrest Avatar

    yes, i’m thinking about it some more too. That if i’d
    not posted that night, those 16 words would never have
    arisen to consciousness….and they are SO important to me.

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  10. grace Forrest Avatar

    Wasn’t it? i love her SO much…her energy her genuine wanting to Know and how people respond to that.
    Just beginning that chapter. and i will find so many connections with how it’s been for Emrie, how it IS for her.
    i am rethinking repetition fractiles over zillions of years

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  11. grace Forrest Avatar

    Mo…thank you… I have been waiting for you to Post…
    your world is blooming

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  12. grace Forrest Avatar

    THANK YOU for these words
    “another pixel into the bigger picture. Same is never Same.”
    they are the antidote. Perfect. Unbelievably Perfect.
    LOVE

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  13. grace Forrest Avatar

    we are. we are and That is what’s worth taking All the
    Time to wonder about…That.

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  14. grace Forrest Avatar

    i so so much love her podcasts. Beyond so much. the
    rhythm of them, the Gentle Dayness of them. Her
    Genuine Sincerity of wondering WITH.
    This one in particular was so Touching…a sense that
    their friendship will deepen

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  15. Lindy Avatar
    Lindy

    We are near Houston, so not a lot of moss. Some lichen.

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  16. Nancy Avatar

    Yes, with…the way they are getting to know and accept each other. So good.

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