windthread

right about in the middle

 closer.

Was set in motion by Dee's post  5/13  Pattern and Outrage,  the stunning collages,  looking,  found self thinking….maybe I coud try to learn  something  like this?,   and IMMEDIATELY the thought…but….What  woud they be     FOR?    and it all began….the Question:   What's it FOR?   I SAW self asking that same old same old question,  all my life,         and the answer:   Why does it have to be FOR  something?   Could the answer be …..Because i Want to?    Could i say that???       Why does everything need to be FOR something?????????       Seems a simple question but wasn't  (Isn't) and immediately,  Help began to flow  from varied sources…. ie:  a notification on FaceBook of an upcoming Course through Love Serve Remember,   Ram Das.   I haven't opened any of their mail for maybe  years  but opened it,   read the introduction for this Heartfulness teaching of the Three Qualities of the Open Heart,   the first being

Spacious Heart…..Empty of concepts    Spacious Heart as moment to moment practice    To be without collecting,  evaluating,   trying to figure things out.     Trying to Figure Things Out…that could be in NEON.    Can you trust the surrender beyond egoic figuring it  out?     NO fixed point of reference.     more neon       To be groundless.

Having felt unmoored  for months now,   and i looked back and see that i've not done any Cloth work for 2 months and that Bothers me .    A lot.   

a segment on NPR  All Things Considered 5/15  with Roland Griffiths which led to YouTube of conversation between he and Tara Brach    Meditation  Psychedelics  and  Mortality  which is incredible.   Really incredible.

this morning NYT   publisher AG Salzberger  makes the case for journalistic independence saying  " Independence asks reporters to adopt a posture of searching,  rather than knowing"   

there is an overlying theme of  Curiosity,   a pervasive Curiosity with no fixed point of reference,  not trying to figure things out.

Looking back in Archives i see i wrote on 4/15…..I have created an identity for my self   by/through  what i  MAKE.       Making is  my fixed point of reference.   What if i just stay unmoored?   See what happens?   I said i'd go back to Cloth after i got the Garden in.  What if i just stay in the Garden?         Sitting out there in said Garden i look up ….the pics above….and see that dead branch,  the black/white/black/white/black/white  pattern….the meaning of which is    MAGIC,  SPIRIT STUFF,     How did that happen?   It must be shadows,  but no ,    i've never seen it before