windthread

rumpled.   i debated about putting this here.   He is a private person.  He would not like being "talked about",  but i think it has value….maybe in many different ways we All might do things in our lives that are some out of the ordinary.

He attended preschool and first grade in a Montesorri school,  they were still living in Chico.   Second grade here,  after they moved.   Rode the bus to a public elementary.   it didn't  go that well  so,   Home School,  to try it out and then Covid.   Home School worked,  it's a good program and he loved the On Line.   He's very smart.   But he had very little going on in the "real world" and actually,   that suited him and well,   there was  Concern always bordering on Worry.   Me  Jenny with  Alyssia listening and filtering us and then him.    He had always said he would go to public high school.   So…it was a surprise when this last summer he told her he wanted to go to public school THIS year.  Eight grade.   We were nervous.   He is a person of very few words   even with Alyssia.   But we trusted.   What,  i don't know,  but we trusted and he went.   Having 2 friends he'd kept in touch with from that second grade,   he Went.    He identified himself to me as something…i cannot for the life of me think of the word he used,  but Socially something and close would be Socially Inept.   It doesn't  bother him…or at least it's what he's willing to say…NO deep conversations with him….   I always think of him as a  40 year old man who just needs to grow into himself.   

so when she picked him up from school today he tossed this to her. 

 Trust.   trust that things might make their own way.   If anything,   he knows we love him.  Totally and Completely.   

 i  am so proud of him,   however he managed this,  whatever it  "looks like"  whatever the reasons.   He is not thrilled.  Having to get up and walk to the front might be the longest walk ever taken.   But…i think he'll do it.