it was difficult to find this. And then, it was difficult to try to understand WHY i so much needed to find it. See it. What would it help me understand? It's taking time to "listen" for the answers to those questions. I posted it last night so it would be waiting for me when i woke this morning….but it was gone. And then, this Day had a mind of its own. So tonight i begin again. With just the image. words tomorrow.
so much converges here.
The lama from Tibet…Gelek Rinpoche, Jewel Heart Temple, the early 80s, Ann Arbor Michigan. "Everything has a front and a back. The bigger the front, the bigger the back".
Those two lizards down at Jack Flash's Gate. Uno and Dos. Who for 2 years now, i have met each morning, except in months like these last 2 when they go elsewhere because of the heat. How we have over time come to KNOW eachother. How they have taught me about my mind. How i have learned to free my "consciousness" from my Self. How i have learned that it is possible to meet Out There. The sense of it is that what i am used to, is …….this is hard to say……being INSIDE my self. As if my awareness is just behind my face. But when i meet with them, it is OUT there beyond me, in the space that is free to everything and for everything, where the exchange between us can happen. Where we ARE.
i needed to find this photograph because i remember understanding something about this so many years ago when i was all lost in Falconing….the relationship between free bird and human. Wanting to learn that, not to hunt, but to fly one, to be in relationship with a peregrine. What i saw in this photograph….the deep Willingness of the bird to connect.
Everything has a front and a back. conversely, the back has a Front. These days of excessive heat. Days on end of near 105 degrees. Finding self so much just squatting, breathing. Looking long, long. with no reason at anything and everything. gravel of the road up, dried broken leaves, forms of dry earth. and with the Evacuation, the death of the Garden, now no longer reprieve from it all. just looking. and coming OUT from behind my face. into relationship with two specific trees that had just before been just trees. the front of the Back.
i love this photograph, this bird. its tender stark Beauty of what it IS. the exquisite result of Evolution, born to be what it IS and being that so absolutely perfectly. Their stoop in flight….200 mph. Think of it. 200 mph.
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