the fiber sisters….Redding and Bella Vista are both home.   Bella Vista is no longer under mandatory Evacuation…just Warning.  Redding….Lifted..   Maybe a week or so before that mandatory evacuation for Redding,   Cheryl of Redding sent these three so delicate packages of Beauty.   She didn't know,  but she DID know,    and sent the Dark Violet Black…

that quote…..that maybe isn't or is?   or paraphrased?   or maybe it was a dream?   from when i was in Oregon,      Everything was different.  And nothing had changed but my mind. i keep thinking it's Anais Nin….does anyone know?   

at the base of one of the tomato pots.  2 of them….this one accidentally knocked over,  not knowing it was there…appearing "overnight".    Studying the pamphlet Mushrooms of California  J. Duane Sept,  i think it is Good.  But i would need to find someone i could "drive" to….mushroom in hand….but i CAN.    This i…

Opened to that blank page….thinking of some kind of map,  or diagram.  Sat staring.   Put the pencil to the paper and began the  HAND.   When i draw these things i have to put my hand or body or face in place,  then i touch my self,  feel myself to try to know how to draw. …

because Typepad will not allow me multipe pics.   This here.   the drawing of me….traveling in the circular,  hauling baggage. go to the next post,  please.

maybe if i try to DRAW what's  going on?   i might be surprised. am also still very much here.   Continues to be on cloth Wall.  I look at it much of any day….sometimes closely,  a lot of the time just a kind of gazing.  I want to keep these scraps together just like this but…

as an example.    of  what i am trying to work with.     those folders….in them….this  bookmark of a drawing i'd made,  that was somewhere back in some years,  somewhere back in those manila folders.   Do not know where the original drawing is.        But this morning,  it was propped up against the…

jenny messaged yesterday….not coming.  She was exhausted,  both physically and of heart.   She messaged that the hospital where she works had only 3 icu units left.   The week had been grueling.  She couldn't move.    Today at around noon she messaged again.  Got called in to work.  Not coming.   They are full.   Will now need…

i understood something in it's Complete Ness this morning.  In a flash.   and as soon as it happened,  and as soon as i  began trying to give it words,  it unraveled and hid from me.   I guess i'm not ready.   ?   or    It's not ready to reveal its truth.   But these words here and…

second sleepOver.     They arrived at noon,  Alyssia had a dental appointment in Chico at 1.    Between noon and "bedtime",  we did a thousand things.   small things.    ordinary.    nothing amazing.    but a Thousand.   She just turned 4.   Still is  comforted by a "sippy" of milk at bedtime…..which,  at home,  she  now …