it was a day that seemed to go on forever.   it had no Time.   it only had doings.  and they flowed,  one into another and were intense and full of feeling and full of physical doing and full of Life itself.   Life.   LIFE.   it began in a difficult and awkward for me way of my…

      so GLAD there were two.   Their lives are so Great as TWO.   and it will be especially so,  in this old herd with all its longstanding complexities.    We will wether them.   band their balls which over time just wither like raisins and fall away.  They will live Free with the Does. …

so it was 30 something hours when i finally lay down to sleep.   I woke at around midnight,  had slept in all my jackets and wool hat,  put on my boots.  Flashlight.  Checked.   Babies sleep.  Mother sleeps.  All touching.    boots off,  jackets,  hat,  off.   Lay down again intending to go check again when i…

  the Presentation you want to see.   The amniotic sac,   which breaks,  and there are two forelegs,  hoofs down   and just along, a nose.   For so long,  with each contraction,  just one leg.    Upon palpation,   only one leg presenting.   A week or so ago she'd sent me a link that talked about inserting a…

mucus began 11 today.  It's now 9 pm something.  Still waiting.  Everybody's here.

  i wanted out of NoWhere to do this.   I started and stopped.  started and stopped.   All day,  could not, did not,  focus,  but moved one thing to the next and around,  mostly in my mind.   I don't want to live like this. a lot of time was spent watching for Caroline,  tracking her through…

there is a PROFUSION of Stork's Bill.    Everywhere down at A From Margery Knott….a Sister here….and because i don't know how to place the words in correct poetic form….just the way i can.  But the words are the words Praise the Rain by Joy Harjo Praise the rain,  the seagull dive       …

something…maybe a sound?,  maybe nothing,  but something woke me in the DarkRainNight,  i clicked on 3 flashlights when one would have been enough,  but i clicked on 3…….    Went to sit at the table after turning on the heat.  Put my socks on,  boots,  located the sweatshirt,  made sure i knew where the gloves…

there's no date on this.   I don't know when i drew it.  i remember it was a time of not knowing what to say.     Caroline.    Facial recognition,  Goats.  Markings.   She passes these to kids.   The most perfectly,  to Jude's Magic who i gave to the young woman in New Mexico because i believed…