Wanting to stay here still.   Realizing how much photographs can be enough.   i love everything here,  i love the place it is in.  Love.    it's the old chair from N Mex that Bill's father made.  Lee.  Bill's father.  I think we might have become lovers if the stars had been aligned.  Me and Lee. …

i was ready to go,  this morning,  at eight.  I'd had two teas.  Lots of thinking .  Ready.  Down to the Wall Garden,  gave water.  Came up to B ,  turned the water on there and came in. let the hose run while i went through boxes of Stuff.   Letting the feelings flow,  like the…

    of all artists,  visionaries,  it's she that I revere.   I looked today and see that she has died.  2019…so in the last months. i wrote about this before but it's a story to tell again.  When i was part owner of the bookstore,  part of my job was ordering and i would call…

just so you don't over anticipate.  Spread out on a tarp.  Looking down,  from where the Diaries Cloth hangs on the fence.  No time today.  So…tomorrow.  The First Look.     legs,  arms.  a little of one foot.   Just this much.  To see if it feels right.  Still looking,  but i think so.

they came.  I was still at the Wall Garden giving water.    Otherwise,  i would not have known.  They chipped.  all the piles we had left along the little road.  and they were gone.  We had wondered if we put too much,  but really,  we could have put so much more.  But this much is…

this is CareFree Way.  the "road" i live on.  sometimes things require a physical address.  This would be it.   The mailing address is a post office box in Oroville.  There's no mail delivery here.    This is physical.  Google maps can find it.  The forest service chipper trucks will find it by google maps.  …

while doing the work,  Alyssia accidentally  pulled a very young coyote bush.  I brought it up and cut it,  pieces of branches, stem and leaves.  In a pot,  boiled moments then outside into the copper pot with that Iron Something,  a horseshoe from the road,  bundled cotton, silk noile and linen.  I googled.  Does coyote…

double click.  Pollen.  How she Stands,  claiming her Place   two days now.  All of us,  Jenny, her man,  alyssia, Emrie,  Tay,  Puppy,  the Goats…down at campsite A….moving a large brush and branch pile.  From when they created the road up.  Before i was here.   There is a Chipper Program.  I signed up after the…

have been watching these Leaves.  At the edge,  just behind the wall garden,  up there,  with the Grass people i didn't pull.   Big leaves.  Alyssia kept saying,  I wonder what that is?  and i kept saying i don't know,  but sure looks like a Hollyhock.   it couldn't possibly be a Hollyhock.  But it sure looked…

the bloom   the fruit yet one more mystery,  compost volunteer and so. today is done.  Sunny,  the old Toyota truck is home.  the Hill home.  Not the desert home.    It was crucial that Sunny was good.  Is one of the trucks,  it takes two,  in case of evacuation.  Fire.  California.    To evacuate…