what is the difference between sadness and grief? Alyssia and Jeffrey came this morning to bury OOna.   It had been supposed to happen yesterday,  after the kids Christmas but things went on and dark comes so early and they ran out of time.   so they came this morning .  She was just there,  i'd covered…

i need to give the remaining days of this month to………….what can i call it?……..positioning mySelf?   maybe.   But to  Questioning.  or,  Looking more closely at where i am so far so that some good Questions might arise?    And it very well may be that it might not be       Pretty    or   …

just a little.  every morning.   just to Keep in Touch

a person whom one knows and with whom one has a bond of mutual affection  

sent by Tia Yesi.   She and the dad took Emrie to the mall.    And last night i Faltered with Radical Acceptance…not crashed,  but faltered.    All while she's been there she hasn't wanted to talk on phone.   They ask…do you want to call your mom?….  No.   When she has gotten on because someone else…

all baskets are        hand made. made by hand       a human being's    hands.      This one…..from the Socorro NM thrift shop,   how many others have had it before me?     What all has it     held?      Who made it?     with their       hands     …

off and on,   when i could.   for the New Year.    When i finally lived alone in New Mex.   sometimes.   Just me.   and today,  belated due to circumstance,   Alyssia and i.   When she picked it up some days ago,  we debated on how much and i said i want more than i can eat.   …

thinking about imagination.    Where is mine?   and,  really,   what does she even look like…or  maybe better use the pronoun They…..    so…how do you find out?…..pencil to paper.        so,  here,  talking,   whatever that might be like?    Want to spend some time with this.    They are sitting.   on rocks.   but…

' when i looked the other night at the little leaf on the moon night light,   i also saw this small glass vase in the background.    It's for water when i use the Inktense Penciils.  Saw how care less i've been…it was all clouded by calcification etc.    and i  stopped.  Got the Bragg…

i said i'd use the Inktense.    i see  it lasted  not even 3 weeks… maybe this time?     So….the ritual of going through the last year's calendar…bringing forward Birthdays etc   in to the New…making note of things that might be good to remember this time Around?   just   FEELING   how it was,  how it is…