again.  just RAIN.   Not easy and i worked with  Radical Acceptance and looked long at the Gumweed  i'd ordered from the Herbalist in Paradise…her recipe of gumweed and cottonwood bud because i'd almost used up the first bottle.  looked at the two wafers of lavender soap she included and this seed packet,  how she loves…

finding this card in a book….Voyager Tarot    and it set me to thinking about how many things i have loved in this life Time and still love,   small things,  large,  small like this card that i've loved for so long and things,  so many i still love and then things that now arise to…

looked everywhere…but no….not.   But i was somehow sure i would have brought it.   I left a lot of caste iron behind.  I'd given up.    today,  while looking for something else….there it was….under the house,  all hidden with dry grasses, dirt,  leaves.  Ta DA! i should have taken  her pic   in the beginning….SO MUCH rust….this…

 it's been awhile since i've been to B Garden.   There's some disarray but also…these were waiting.   Garden needs me.  and i need  Garden.    

  Just Jenny came today.   She and I.   a Work Day.   some chainsaw work but mostly digging.  Shovel full by shovel full.   Her.   I sat near and we talked.    about the War,   about the involvement of the United States in conflicts over the years,   about looming presidential possibilities,   Roe  v Wade,  my abortions,  her…

this morning…. Some of the Doe Goats have long full beards.   There is a kind of grass that sends out millions of very sticky prickly seeds,  tiny,  that tangle in them as they brouse  .   They stand…very still,  and Talkie fastidiously snaps them away.   Grooming.  Mutual. the GOOD thing Talkie continues to do.    then….there's…

ok. standing just at the gateway to the expanse of Radical Acceptance.   I see that it is vast.  That things come into focus and then fade,  only to return in a different way.   I know only that I have a limited understanding of how things work here.  I know that i can learn.  I know…

the longest i've ever left it.    For days….a few weeks,   i think…today.   But then i didn't.   Today i did. there are some people who like spiders.   a lot who don't,  really,   who are creeped out by them.   How they have so many legs,  go so fast,  are sneaky…hiding then popping out These Cellar spiders, …

2023   The new little space heater .    Over there ….directly in my line of vision from my spot at the Table.   It's black and…… red disruptive to the odd Aesthetics   here but it works.  Cuts the edge of the morning cold.   Works on the small 1 lb propane cylinders .      i looked…