windthread

between Jack's fence and his feed shed.    a lot of foot traffic there.   but somehow….for some days now,   standing tall.  A single Grass,   seed having taken it's place,  taken root,   growing ,   enough of an aura to Hold Space     I think of this..   How we can be.

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crows gathered

So.   Done.    my drivers license renewal required a vision test…all those over 75 yrs…….

High Anxiety.  a Who Knows thing.   I'd not noticed any change but       you never know,   I might be surprised…..so it LOOMED.   The possibility of surprise.   I put it off,   was over due,   but had an appointment for today.   and

I went.

and passed.   4 more years,  good to go.   

Minnow's Spay,   this…..had LOOMED over everything else.    What will it be like now?,  to be done with both?   I look forward to tomorrow.

there's always Beauty…goodness….softness,  small and large reprieves.   Always.  every day.

and there's also…..how it is….now.  and I keep thinking about her,  AOC ,  Congresswoman  Ocasio-Cortez.   How she first must have  said those words I posted yesterday  to her self…and at some point,  when she came to know them as her Truth,  began to say them aloud to Us….the people she serves.   I think of her waking mornings wherever she sleeps,  readying her self and going off into those halls of Congress  walking among them,  those of meanspirit,  some dangerous,   how she will be  the one who  "live(s) 

faithfully in dark times" as Margery says,    after I and Elizabeth Warren are gone,   will go with Alyssia and Emrie

what does it feel like for her as she faces into January, 2025?   How it is.   that the election is over,  but we have yet to begin what that means.   How at this point it's almost  kind of like a TV show….we know all the names of the players,  the set where it will take place,  or,   sets….those halls of Democracy and the streets of our lives           and she …..she …..what?   she  is ready.    as much as anyone can be.   What's it like,   to be her?    What's it like to be me?,   what's MY place in it all?    I need to know so I can "live faithfully".

thank you,  Margery.   Thank you for the words   "live faithfully in dark times"      they fortify me

" …that does not preclude the fact that slowly but surely, good can be growing as other things fall apart.

The world we are fighting for is already here.  It exists in small spaces, places, and communities,  and much of our work is about scaling existing solutions .  You are aloud to be scared.  To grieve.   To be angry. But you are also aloud to create good,  to be soft,  and enjoy the small reprieves.   The struggle lasts as long as we do.

In solidarity,"                                                                                                                                                                                           AOC

                  

Julian's pie

Apple

who would ever have imagined?????????    he wanted to make it.   it took hours…the peeling of the apples,  the perfection of the crust    I just love this.    He is surprising us at every turn and I think,   surprising himself.  

it's a twin.   there are 2

my son has his father's photographs.   there are a lot.   He passed this one on to Alyssia  who  sent it along to me.  Maybe I am 21.    I used to like to dye my hair.   Ash blonde,  reddish,  and this,  my favorite,  black.  I remember being her.

the right hand Gives

the left  Receives

won't load,  but it was just of the faulty propane lines.   that DID get fixed but put a dent in my enthusiasm which wasn't much to begin with.   I took nothing.

Arrived at Alyssia's just after noon,  the cooking was well underway .    A   change had happen yesterday.   Jenny's man is given a turkey at his job.   The decision was made that the turkey would go to Jax's mother's house for her to create Thanksgiving there on Sunday.   but here,   it was a spiral ham.   ????    yes.   and it spiraled from there…the 3 young ones each made a variation of cornbread and a variation of Mac and cheese.   They took great pride.    I  helped stuff and wrap cheese filled jalapen0s and bacon,  Jenny  brought mashed potatoes,  sweet potatoes,  gravy   and an   Excellent    Green Bean Onion Ring casserole.  Jazmin,  the newest addition from the little yellow house next door,   Jeffrey's half sister from Michigan,  a fresh vegetable pasta.  Julian is now the pie man but that will be for Sunday.  Today,  Lemon Meringue and Cherry…store bought but GOOD.  

and cooking just flowed into setting the picnic table outside under the carport and on into EATING and time went fast,  time for me to get back to do the evening feed before dark.   It was also Minnow's Big Day.   She came and was free in the yard.  She was thrilled.  She loves the kids so much.

so.   Thanks Giving.   2024   If it wasn't for the kids,  I think we would have passed.    But they were all  about it.  Not enough to be imprinted with Turkey,   but the Idea of it.    They loved being part of it.  They loved that we all sat around the table,  that they came around and served their cornbreads.   It was Good.   We saw/see that we      take care    of Each Other.   We are Family.  and we can improvise.  Next year,  I will"be"  roast root vegetables.  I wrote it on the calendar.

and now,   it's late.  Minnow is dreaming.   and I think of All Who Come Here.   How YOU too are Family.  How we take care of each other here.      I am thank Full.   for so much.     I WILL TAKE CARE.

Love and Love to US.   So Much.

i say       it's ok.  you don't need to wear it.

she says      it's ok.  I don't mind