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ready

July 2, 2024

we are at EVAC WARNING. Getting ready to load up.

the face, arm, hand 2023 in the Sketch Book and today i add the Essential Beings. My Mark. i put it on all the fiber figures i made, on all those angels i made. said my mark. What do i mean? is it a mark?….OR is it a depiction of something more than that?

Days of

June 30, 2024

zucchini fritters round two. with ketchup and Huy Fong Sriracha

strange day

June 29, 2024

it began like any other, wake, become upright, make Tea, drink Tea, watch daylight unfold, feed Goats, Cook, feed self, Little Sleep, 20 minutes, second Tea

like any other but then i took up the Sketch Book, noticing how few pages are left in this one and turned to the first. and it spiraled from there. In? or Out?, the spiral? what's the difference? First some pages have printouts glued in of Still in New Mexico…August, 2016 Beginning about the Old Apricot Tree i didn't look at many pages, really, skimmed through till more recent….but those skimmed pages are YEARS. and i remembered something Beth said….Still Life Pond…. "I don't think in words" and how many times i have remembered her saying that…DID SHE REALLY?, say that? I emailed her to find out and it mattered because i thought how when i "heard" her say that i was…..REALLY?!!! yes!!!! i don't either!!!! and i spent time with that and realized i think in Pictures…like that thing i have about it all being like a Slide Show…the pictures projected on the blank wall…click, click, click and it's how it was….tryinging to think about August 2016

where was I?

and then….when did i Get HERE? and i had to go back through so many clicks of the slide show But the pic here. The Magic Diaries Cloth i think? on that Wall i used to have in New Mexico

and maybe this all is also connected to Emrie's questions about why i live in this little place with no working microwave…she had a lot of questions I tried to tell her about the house in New Mexico

all these words all these words all this thinking how i don't do this much anymore and how much a relief it is really, that it's all just stuff, really…. Beauty FULL stuff but Stuff. and as an aside, i realized somewhere in all this i realized that it's all documented in the thing of this sidebar Archives

i went there and saw Emrie just born Emrie, why i came here. born July 2017

it’s True

June 28, 2024

i said she didn't need to "pose", that it was the carrot i wanted the pic of…….

we were Curious and it won out….one for her, one for me and this one we brought up for Alyssia when she came. Such a BRIGHT CLEAR Carrot y taste even at this beginning. We talked about how amazing that is….that time after time after time, the seed will give the carrot.

i would do any Thing for this person

June 27, 2024

and then

June 27, 2024

well into the Dark time,

it

rained. end of the month of June…..it rained. maybe 3 minutes Sudden, the sound and then…the smell RAIN

and like the flick of a switch….ON OFF. Big drops like these. ?

how things are

June 25, 2024

outside B Garden….looking In and Up

inside B Garden looking Out and Up Thinking. It's called Climate Crisis. not climate change. i think about Joanna Macy.

i hesitate to say much about Fire Season. i refer to Evacs. not a lot. In fire season you think about evac every day. just quietly….it's just there. I'm used to it. i think if it were just me, a cat and a dog, i wouldn't think much. the Goats make the difference. Loading them and hooking up the trailers takes all of us. Jenny and her man from Chico, Alyssia from across town. Jeff, now that he's there can help. and we try to be ready.

These last couple years…..we've become a little uhhhh, complacent? With Watch Duty, the so great Fire App , more info, so much less guess work…anxiety. with Butte County contracting with Cal Fire. All their Fire Science and Know How not to mention equipment, and Believing that "Paradise" won't happen again. Fires start all the time. Sometimes there will be 3 Alerts, 3 fires burning "nearby" in a day. there's almost always one. Updates every half hour or so until we read Contained. Often, within hours. Cal Fire is "ON IT". this one, Apache Fire…Palermo, grasslands as in for cattle grazing, 16 miles away. Began Monday at 30 acres. Became 673 and remained through the night. into today until it held at 691. No updates all day til this eve 7:07 691 acres 25% contained. and that's where it stands.

SOMETHING HAPPENED HERE…i lost one pic and a couple paragraphs…so going to cut to the chase.

Beth and i are doing Sharon Salzberg's online 10 day live Teaching Equanimity. How perfect can all this be?

i was going to say some things about it here but Inet seems sensitive…so won't, but she gives the images of

Not a scale that balances but rather a gyroscope. Enough. Tonight will be for sleeping. might as well. One more thing. IF we are gathering Goats, hooking up, I WILL VERY CLEARLY SAY THAT. But for all the rest…., it's just how things are until the Rain. October, November? i'll try not to talk about it much. Because there's no point. It's climate CRISIS and we, as a people , have no Will to face it, to do anything that might be done. And so…. there we have it. Ok.