everything i said yesterday is true. but also, so much more is also true. the thing of Add Ons
i want to say things about that. i think i was not clear and it's important that i try to be. I wanted to do that tonight but it's not happening…. maybe tomorrow?
i debated about this.
but it's the truth of this day in early March, 2024. The "plumbing" for the toilet, which in travel trailers consists of tubes and valves etc. has been leaking. Bathroom floor is damp or plain wet so a while ago i put two of those door mat rugs in there thinking it would keep the surface dry. They are wet. the kind that have the rubber bottoms and some sort of rugish substance on top. There's a little stool at the sink and i tripped on it and it moved and Lo and Behold this being above. There are actually two of it. or two parts of it. I put the stool back in place. Over it. Like it was. I've known about this for a few days now. Check on it now and then. It grew but seems to be what it wants to be now. HOW did it happen? a
spore?
how did a spore come in and locate this spot? What might its purpose be? What's next? Kill it?
this "winter" has been extremely difficult. One thing after another. The built in heater system wouldn't work and then about a month or so ago the hot water heater stopped working. a leak in the roof over the back room and the near constant RAIN preventing work outside in attempt to correct. and we try to locate the man who we are told works on such things. I keep saying the Rain will stop soon. It will dry up, warm up. But what's for sure is that in the months ahead we need to fix things or find alternates before next Rain Season rolls around. I have a list.
and the Good Working with Sharon Salzberg's Practices…….i can watch it so clearly….the "add ons" that roll in. Any given MOMENT, the breath, this ONE SINGLE MOMENT that is Now breathing and the add ons begin….how this shouldn't be happening, how it WAS in N. Mex how helpless it feels how much i HATE being wet and cold how California shouldn't be this way how over burdened Jenny and Alyssia already are with their own lives, how i am old and dependent on them how how how how and daily now. it becomes easier and easier to just BE. THIS moment breath on through. I am Safe. I am happy. I am healthy. and in so many ways, i live with Ease. and Let it Go. and all that comes with Gathering at the Well i cannot really talk about. But it is the aliveness of who we are as we move through this time of our lives " finding Purpose and Release in Authentic Living " words of Wendy Golden Leviett
grandson Jeff had gotten 4 windchimes at a yard sale…..hung them here at A.
Continuing, the days are nothing but sheets of Rain. We are all uneasy. I can remember this is there. Look forward to seeing it again.
want to remember how much i want to get actual photographs of many of the pics on the phone….so like this one, i can find them tucked in the pages of books…..sit and hold the image, the memory, in my hands. it's such a different experience than seeing them on the screen.
how Blanket will travel as the Evacuation blanket. Ties are Deb Lacativa. the Tina quilt is strong, can travel Open. I reread these words….think them, they say a lot. more. than what they are. How things carry past present and future all at the same time.
good thing there was yesterday because this is today. Very early. The rest of the day was sky river, on into evening. And good that i took a lot of pics of the Blanket. When i look at them today, it's very different. i see possibilities. and i see what i saw all along, all the pieces of cloth i Love. Today is good.
and the "little sleep" gave the thought of what if……..what if there are two rows of 4 at the top and same at the bottom , looking at it vertically, and in between one row of 3….the center spiral of which would be a Metta Spiral??? Yesterday was day 28, the last day of Sharon Salzberg's Real Happiness Meditation Challenge. I will miss her very much….the Teaching, the guided meditation first thing every morning and repeated in the days. It all remains available until May 31. I intend to Begin Again on March 1, tomorrow. and maybe while i listen, see what a Metta Spiral might be like?
the road in the pic above is Carefree Way. that's the Plumcot tree, just beginning to blossom.
it occurred to me out of the blue that Maybe the picnic table down at A might be large enough to lay it out on and get it pinned. Off i went and it was long enough, but not wide enough, BUT it's very clean there…..earth all with gravel and ground cover which this year is almost all stork's bill. First i pinned them a little apart from one another, how i imagined i wanted them……but not. So this way and i was missing one and probably two but it was good enough to finally Begin.
but
i don't really like it. I don't know why. i LOVE each spiral individually so it doesn't make sense. But i don't. So, now what. and remember, i have enough spirals made for 2 more this size….for Jenny and Alyssia…… eee….
it's supposed to RAIN now for the next 10 days, why i was hoping this would work. Maybe i'll just make the adjustments that are needed and go. Begin.
that community of mushrooms i mentioned. i really want/need to find a person who i can take an example to. That could tell me if they are edible or not? All the identification sources i have do not leave me confident. This would be just Great if they were….something to look forward to at the end of Rain Seasons. And funny, these pics make clear just how much the pine needles are present.. before the planting, augmenting the soil, they need to be cleared which is done by raking through, over and over with my fingers.
Belen, NM this pic appeared today as a Memory no known reason so i accept and know it's for "some" reason
Alyssia is maybe 8 so that would make Jeff 6 or maybe 9 and 7 They brought Petunias
I had just moved there, from El Cerro Mission. lived there maybe 3 months before moving to Polvadera. What's important tho is that Everywhere the first thing always was
the Garden
here, that birdbath arrangement. that got moved to so many places. and then the arranging of stones.
Just like now, the stones Birdbath got left behind.
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