"it is the heart……..speaking out loud in the clear air" David Whyte
i like to think the Universe says Metta for me
sometimes in the face of things, i can fall into a place where i think Metta is weak. that its words are naive, childlike simplicity But sitting, breathing, i think….is it not what ALL living beings would hope for?, Safety, happiness, strong enough body to carry you along, freedom from suffering, however your circumstance defines that
i would be like her. Present. in
any moment.
i had ZERO memory of this card.
i have gotten into the habit of keeping this collection of index cards on the Table. like now, there's usually 20 some of them. I write all manner of things. words i constantly can't remember and are on the tip of my tongue, driving me nuts, like IDIOM which i just now had to riffle through them to remember…..recipes or suggestions for foods, a spicy peanut sauce, where things are in town, how to empty the waste water thingys just stuff i forget that i dont want to forget and yesterday, i took the rubberband off and looked for something, i don't remember what in this moment, but
here this was. ????? How perfect. how perfect i was looking for something else and found This.
Wendy said…. "working with clear energies that are often opposing each other, to allow for more clarity, less intensity, and a clearer compass towards reconciliation and integration"
integration….. required.
Dee's post. I was so flooded with gratitude to her for the beautifully crafted presentation of all that i live with…..the part of me that has been simultaneous with the work with Sharon Salzberg, the circling round to the teachings of Eckhart T0lle which are to me absolutely True and Real, both How do you reconcile these in the mind heart and body? How to LIVE with these opposing energies within the self? or are they opposing or just Front and Back of the same human dilemma?
and then…..there was more.
i read Dee's words and felt loosened. this day was Bright Sun and warmth i went out to care for the Goats there was a lightness that hasn't been there for so long and down at Jack Flash's Gate….i leaned in and said the words that i have said every day for months…. "Friends! hello! I love you. Thank you for all you show/ed me " all through the winter/Rain months i say this even tho they have been gone, remembering how every morning in the warm months they were there, showing me their Lizard selves, Uno and Dos leaping and coming forward "to" me showing me connection between us communication between us for which i will forever be grateful so i have continued to say it and i saw a
flutter
of something that i assumed to be a leaf but it was not it was one of Them……a Lizard
just like before it's small self standing there, it's eye contact body directly facing and i was FLOODED with JOY, Gratitude, Surprise and Wonder i don't know which of them it was but one of them…..just like it was at the end of the warm months when they had to go Just like it was. and my whole self just exclaimed!!!! EEEEEEEEEee OH OH
Thank You
How to reconcile these Realities? Integrate, Integrate them. Begin with a Beauty FULL day. there is
Release. we Go.
go read
Pattern and Outrage Dee Mallon.com
a few days ago all three kids were here, an ice and battery delivery, and Alyssia and i were at the table talking. They were worn out from Tag and had brought down their digging tools, a trowel, spoons, a spatula, a couple bowls and began digging. And as always, told to go elsewhere….farther away….not where people walk and as always they really wanted to dig there ? Maybe because they can listen to our conversation? don't know because as they are digging there is a LOT of conversation between them, but i gave in and said ok but you will need to make it Good before you leave….fill in the hole, well. They did. And
this nice arrangement of rocks.
yesterday i saw Emrie squatting, looking at it and called over to her how much i like the really good job they had done. This morning as i went by, looking down i saw her addition. Look right in the middle. That's so Emrie. and she didn't say anything, just did it. Being here by herself, spent the rest of the time teaching Minnow how to climb trees.
yesterday i said lost in ……….how i become lost in. it's my nature. to become lost in things. Wholeheartedly lost. until i become lost again. and where i find myself now…..in this Present. that in a certain way is made out of all that has passed. having gotten lost in wanting to "know", in Buddhism, and all that "new age" things brought, and in DRAWING then the MAKING of the fiber figures/art dolls and then, in Jude Hill's Spirit Cloth. joyfully lost. wholeheartedly lost. and now in my 78th year, i look at what i carry from all that, what i've kept in my knapsack. and things continue to rise, or, re~rise….those being through the work with Sharon Salzberg's teaching and most recently, and, surprisingly, the return of Eckhart Tolle's teaching all which are centered in the Now. I think….what have i left undone? Diorama. the thing of diorama. my love since grade school of diorama and i thought this morning, maybe that's what i'm doing…. the diorama is this Hill and i am lost in the Life that i'm living? sometimes joyously, always wholeheartedly
these are the thoughts i can take to the Gathering at the Well
pic : the pull of cloth remains strong
how Caroline is so unphotogenic….her legs always looking 2 inches tall, how it doesn't come across that way in person. Watched them a lot today beginning when seeing them out the window as they came down from the crest of the Hill, having already been down to the Big Meadow at A, just spilling over that ridge. thought how they are such "fulfilled Metta"…..safe, happy, healthy, living with ease. So glad this has become their life. That's Onday farthest in the back on the right. One of the first born to Jenny in Los Lunas NM at the very beginning of it all. i found the Artisan Cheese Making book the other day. Nigerians…the highest quality goat milk, highest butterfat, milk solids and protein content of all dairy goats. How i quit thinking about all that when i became lost in Spirit Cloth world. how things are intertwined.
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