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a shift

something shifted today.   not because of any intent on my part,    it just

shifted.

the day was relatively normal for a "work" day.  with the added beginning of the Tai Chi  class.  although i am still awkward,   i am very much less so.  it is the third week of twice weekly learning.  the sciatic thing is pretty much gone, unless i "push it".  there was a tendency tonight when i came home, to dig one more tree well out and fill in the mulch.   but maybe most important of all,  i didn't do that.  instead, i thought about cloth.  i thought about how my daughter is in California for six days visiting Her daughter.  i called her there and she related her day with her grandson.  they took a walk.  which ended with getting a push-up ice cream at the gas station.  he was very interested in the mechanism of the push-up.  then they came home and had a nap.

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Kinds of Balance

after the phone call, i went outside to smell the lilacs.  and  as i was leaning in to a bloom, something vibrated the air so close to my cheek that my hair moved….  the Pandora Sphinx.  so completely absorbed in the nectar of the blooms that she was almost part of me. 

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can you see her beautiful round black eye??

not knowing exactly what to do next, i leafed through the current issue of Buddhadharma that had arrived in the mail today  and saw  a photograph of a round building…that  it seems, will not appear here.  but i will try tomorrow to place it.  but i saw it, and knew that however it all goes,  life will be supported.  i may very well not know the form, but it will be supported.

my mind is full of images of cloth making tonight.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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  1. Valerianna Avatar
    Valerianna

    I’m seeing a nest when you mention a round house. I hope you can post it, sounds nice. I like buildings in the round….
    I have different kinds of sphinxes, they are something!
    I know your warm there, but its hard to imagine as we are getting a big ‘nor easter and might get 18inches when its all done. I hauled wood, collected kindling, emptied ash bin, and stocked the cupboard so I can watch the snow fall tomorrow and do my taxes – at least PART of that sounds good!
    Imagining lilacs…. hmmmmm, nice dream to go off to bed with, thanks!

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  2. grace Forrest Maestas Avatar
    grace Forrest Maestas

    V~ i am hoping i can find a way to get that pic in here too. for
    whatever reason, it unlocked the uhhhh, maybe, resistence to
    leaving this place for the new place in N. Cal? here i go, trying
    to interpret things the minute they “come through”, rather than
    just letting them settle, particle by particle.
    yes. it is warm here. next days will reach 80.
    it is the world that i need. the heat. coming here some 20 years
    ago felt like finally being in my natural habitat. i think of
    the pics you posted about visiting your parents place of choice.
    each of us has a Place i think.
    that is the issue of me moving from here to the Next. the week
    of my daughter in Cal is for investigating where we can all end up.
    the good thing is that the climate where she will look is similar
    to here. warmth. i am a lizard. need warmth to process.
    the lilacs are so incredibly strong this year that i think they
    are able to fill your dreams. i will hope so.

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  3. jude hill Avatar
    jude hill

    life is supported by shifts somehow. i like the shape the movement of that creature carves into the air.

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  4. Valerianna Avatar
    Valerianna

    No lilacs in my dreams last night, but a medium sized mountain lion who I was afraid of…..
    Glad that CA will be warm, too. Wouldn’t want to think of a lizard in the cold! And there is something wonderful about family moving closer together. I’m glad my parents are soooo happy in their “paradise” as they put it, but it I hate that they are so far away!

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  5. Patty M Avatar
    Patty M

    I used to live in a cabin above the town of Redway in N. Calif. It
    had no electricity or plumbing but made up for that with living close
    to artists and song writers. So many people making stories, art and songs. Great place! And you also have redwoods near.

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  6. grace Forrest Maestas Avatar
    grace Forrest Maestas

    yes…her intensity vibrates and changes molecules, i
    think….the mutuality of moth and bloom

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  7. grace Forrest Maestas Avatar
    grace Forrest Maestas

    Patty..i looked up Redway…it is totally parallel to
    Red Bluff…just much closer to the ocean coast. i
    actually don’t want to be on that coastline. we are
    thinking in terms of some permanance in her life anyway,
    and the raising of the dairy goats. making a life that
    will be relatively easily sustainable that the rest of the family can come or go from as their own lives change.
    Areas near Red Bluff, Cottonwood are inexpensive. many
    that we have looked at online are $3-$500 a month mortgages. Mt. Shasta is on that horizon. close enough
    to the ocean for a day trip, and in the other direction,
    mountains with snow. Chico for whoever is in school….
    i am very excited for what these next days will tell about
    it all.

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  8. Martine Avatar
    Martine

    so happy to read the sciatic thing is pretty much gone……….
    XXXm

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  9. Patty M Avatar
    Patty M

    Oh yes, that is a special place too!

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  10. Acey Avatar
    Acey

    wonderful brave news about the abated sciatic concerns. it will be so long before I’m likely to have garden company like your pandora sphinx so this was a wonderful pick me up. to see her eye looking at you. trusting … will have to poke around and read more about this potential exodus to N. Cali. Have relatives there…

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  11. grace Forrest Maestas Avatar
    grace Forrest Maestas

    i think it wasn’t so much a matter of trust, as it was
    such incredible focus. all that mattered was the nectar.
    i was really beside the point. there was willingness to
    risk all.
    yes…her eye. i can’t get over the eye.
    the exodus. i like that term for it. well…i think
    it is already happening in a way, we just have to catch
    up with the Energy of it.
    i had thought, till last summer, that i would be here
    “forever”. the plan was for daughter to tie me in one
    of the trees and set it on fire as the grand finale.
    but…alas. there seems to be a whole other Part Three.

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  12. grace Forrest Maestas Avatar
    grace Forrest Maestas

    yes… and today was a good test. i need to say here that
    the Tai Chi instructor also does really great stretching
    exercises at the beginning and the end. i think they also
    have effect. it’s all just such a beautiful and perfect
    combination…the reality of the Tai Chi and the
    SURRENDER to that reality. just beginning to know about
    what all this is. really beautiful.
    but this evening, body is happy. heart is happy.
    what more could there be….

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  13. Terri Avatar
    Terri

    OMG The photo of the Pandora Sphinx and the lilacs is SO incredible. Thanks for posting!!

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  14. Terri Avatar
    Terri

    The above, your words waiting here to be read, after my return from Ann Arbor this weekend, are so touching my heart.

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