yesterday, i read the maybe second to last post in Sun Moon and Stars.  i clicked the video…watched the little feather float…watched Jude touch her cloths…listened.  i read the words and then clicked the two audios

and as sometimes happens, there was this                   pure rush                  of images        visual and sensual, i saw so much, so many things                  and i walked away from the screen, just totally filled to overflowing with things

then glanced at the clock.  what could i do with this before i had to leave for Alz. B's???   and it all almost immediately began to dissolve.  by the time i got home, it was gone.  this morning it was gone.   i cleaned house.  put up some summer window hangers in the ROOM, two skirts, cut and stretched across the long windows.  the Raven back on the door window.  i was so much wanting all those images to return.  no.  so i cleared a basket, sloshed the cast iron pot, and sat with the cloth that i'd dyed.  going to various baskets and cigar boxes, i gathered fragments that i love…layed them with the dyed cloths and just looked.  i will begin putting pieces in that basket when they rise to the surface as the days go on.  by the time July arrives and the Magic Diaries, the basket might be full of pieces that feel right.  i go often to Jude's Flickr slideshow of Coma, let it talk to me in its language of image.  this language i would like to learn for the Diaries. 

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i stitched the feelers of the Moon Moth…not much to show for a day…but what it was.  this piece will go on the big cloth of my own…the Diaries cloth.  i think it is some kind of cape.

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and Empathy.  empathy comes in for those who are still going off daily or almost, to make a living.  being responsible for children of their own in addition to that.   it is very hard.  and i Honor you all.

 

 

 

 

 
 

 

 

 

 

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25 responses to “empathy”

  1. linda Avatar

    WOW once again you say it all. I get so excited by the videos and talks and have a lot of ideas and thoughts about stitching this or that. Then I go to work and come home totally spent. I long for the days of staying home and stitching. I still try to take my Fridays but more and more they get taken up. (like tomorrow).
    I am gathering for diaries as well. I don’t have an idea like you, but I have thoughts and thoughts.
    I am glad we are doing another one together. And I’m glad I have a month to do some stitching with all the ideas floating in my head.
    BTW I love the moon moth.. beautiful stitching.

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  2. nance Avatar

    that is a perfectly beautiful moth. i would be content with that moth. its perfect. it brings me peace.

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  3. cindy Avatar

    well, these words are a lot to show for a day, and your gathering plan, and even the ideas that have floated away. i’m sure they’re still in you & will float to the surface again, hopefully at a time when you can be with them. your fabrics and basket look like magic waiting to happen, i’m going to look for my basket like that. also dreaming of the diaries whisperings
    your empathy is so appreciated, as is the rest of you. ooo

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  4. stitchinglife2 Avatar

    Your stitching is becoming so confident and assured. It’s a delight to see.

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  5. Penny B Avatar

    A heartfelt post Grace. I agree it must be so tough being a provider for your family in this day and age. I would add empathy for those who need to provide but have lost their jobs…it seems there are so many of them nowadays.
    I too am looking forward to July but don’t have as beautiful a basket to collect things in. So happy to see your moth dancing around the moon again.

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  6. jude hill Avatar

    ah, work. life is difficult. i am even considering returning to work in the fall. i somehow managed to stitch while commuting which was , as i look back, a gift of extra time, even an escape form all the doing. i remember, while a single mom and working, it was my only time. i might have been napping, but i traded the sleep for stitch. it is very hard. you look back and wonder how you did it. if you get through it.

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  7. Nancy Avatar

    Yes Jude – I look back to my single parent of two days and wonder about how on earth I got through months and months and months of 15 hour week days, split shifts on two jobs, running by the house to pick up dinner foods for one or both kids, arranging for rides to after school dance, baseball, work for the kids – plus parenting and going through the divorce at the same time. I am so grateful that time is over, even if my commute now is long and icky. I’ve completed the parenting part and this is good. But it is still tough being the provider.
    Linda- It sounds like we have similar days! Ahhh…to have some non-tired time! LOL
    Grace- I too am glad to be going through another class with you. Your sharing adds a lot to my days. Thank you for that.

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  8. Debi Minter Avatar

    Lovely post… lovely thoughts! It will be a delight to hunt and gather for the Magic Diaries. I have the whole summer to get a start going on my large cloth. Like you, I’ve been starting to sort. But, I’ve no where near the pile that you do. After finals on Monday, and I can breathe without a nervous hitch, I can start to gather and touch my humble beginnings of cloths started during the the different workshops. I’m going to love this summer and I’m so glad to be taking another workshop experience with you!
    😉 Debi

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  9. Debi Minter Avatar

    Oh! and P.S.: I love your moon moth! It makes me smile!
    ;-D

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  10. Kristin Shields Avatar

    Lovely post Grace. Your photos remind me so much of the photos of Jude’s studio. The moth is incredible, you’ve really captured it.

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  11. grace Forrest Maestas Avatar

    it’s complex. i recently gave up one of my jobs because
    originally, the thing with the sciatica. but that’s gone
    now, or gone as long as i continue to be conscious of what the body needs…
    it’s tempting, to back to that job. a good chunk of $
    every month. just yesterday she emailed…Please. but
    i need to weigh it. need to look honestly at exactly
    WHAT i would do with that extra money. is it worth
    selling Time, selling the days of my life?
    selling those exact mornings when everything is so
    incredibly beautifully THERE ????
    i don’t think so. i’ve done that since i was 16. time
    now to devote time to what i know to be ….what….?
    i guess i am at a point where i am seeing some end days.
    when those days come, what will i value? having had
    some extra money?
    or
    having taken the time to create something that was
    of my soul.

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  12. grace Forrest Maestas Avatar

    then this is good, nance. Peace. there is nothing more.

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  13. grace Forrest Maestas Avatar

    those baskets…they sell them through the Farmers Markets
    all over New Mexico. $25. have some kind of contact for
    them. if you’d like one, i can get it for you?

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  14. grace Forrest Maestas Avatar

    Karen…this is so good for me to see. Do you really
    see a difference? hard for me, cause it’s on my table,
    lap, every day…but for you to say that….thank you

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  15. grace Forrest Maestas Avatar

    yes. there is always that paradox. and i have always
    been incredibly fortunate to have the Opportunity to
    make the money i need. i can’t imagine what it feels like
    not to….

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  16. grace Forrest Maestas Avatar

    well…what will be, will. but i will hope that it
    is not needed, the working in the fall.
    unless it’s something that will feed your cloth work.

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  17. grace Forrest Maestas Avatar

    Nancy…yes. we go forward together.

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  18. grace Forrest Maestas Avatar

    Debi…don’t put things off. summers go in the blink of
    an eye

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  19. grace Forrest Maestas Avatar

    Kristin…it is such an amazing experience to find
    familiarity in Spirit Cloth. a place where how i am
    doesn’t need to be explained.

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  20. nance Avatar

    grace… you could get one for me. i am in need of one that size…i’ll send you some money.

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  21. stitchinglife2 Avatar

    Yes, really. I can see your growing joy in it as well.

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  22. handstories Avatar

    oh, i’ve got one somewhere, buried in one of my piles…

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  23. handstories Avatar

    but thank you!

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  24. Deb G Avatar

    Oh this can be a frustrating part of the process… and yet maybe it adds something? Thinking a lot right now about how I’ve become more selective about how I spend my time.

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  25. Tammy Avatar

    I love all that is said here .. I am unemployed .. down to my last dime and I would give anything to just sell some work if it only gave me enough. I don’t need more to live.. just enough. To pay the bills and eat. I dream of this .. just creating and living. Now if I could find a way to create and someone will pay me for my creations. That is my dream. I am certain I haven’t done enough to attain it. And most times I feel like im invisible. Maybe I should just stop saying it. I do love your work here Grace ..

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