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Reprieve

Yesterday, the Sky looked like this007f

but i didn't stay quiet long enough.   I didn't look     long enough.  i just forged ahead with so many thoughts that i told my self were

Feelings.

and then somewhere in Time from then and mid morning today,  i remembered reading a Buddhist publication talking about how we are constantly saying we are   Feeling  this way or that and if we STOP and look,  most often we can see that really,  what we call Feelings are

Thoughts.  Mental constructs.  quite different than   ….   what i would say a Real feeling might be.

So, all the feelings about the little buck goats.   and now, there is a Waiting List.  4 left.   ALL homes good. 

So i am looking at this as a reprieve.  that may or may not repeat ever again.  and i am Thinking, instead of Feeling,   about how to go forward with this Goat Keeping Thing.  Today i milked the three does who now have no babies.  This must be done so they don't develop mastitis.  i hadn't thought about that.  so many things to factor in.  I have spent a lot of the day out in the Goat pen.  Watching them.  Just being there…doing nothing,  seeing what They do when i do nothing inside their world. 

and i have inherited a really good good chair003f
it's story is too long to tell here.  but it's cushions, very good cushions are a rose color, to put it nicely.  Pinkish.  RosePinkish.  a color i can't live with.   So this morning i Tea dyed two pieces of cloth…one a sturdy muslin and the other some kind of good heavy cotton.  I will stitch these to the existing covers.  They will be Right.  the back cushion can then receive any kind of odd thing i choose to baste on.  I don't want anything permanent.  i see many different things. 

 

 

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  1. grace Avatar
    grace

    hey, grace…………………………………………………

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  2. grace Avatar
    grace

    me again. at 7 something it got
    DARK
    this needs to be factored in.
    soon, the wood stove will need to be fired up. for this, the wood
    split, hauled in. sometimes in the near coming months, it is
    COLD. it is WINDY. WINDY enough that your ears hurt.
    and then,
    all the Feelings/Thoughts? about the goats…OutSide. How will it
    be for Them? How will i perceive that? Perceive…..Thought? or
    Feeling….perception?

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  3. Valerianna Avatar
    Valerianna

    Great chair… goats are a lot of work…. LIFE is a lot of work. I like the idea of not committing to anything permanent on the cusion back, its another place to look at things maybe, only this time you’ll have to look at them with the eyes of your heart – feel them against your back as you think by the warmth of the fire.

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  4. Nancy Avatar
    Nancy

    So glad for the 4 good homes. What a beautiful sky and great chair. It looks comfy.
    The goats have places to get out of the wind, yes?
    Those big, cold winds that hurt your ears give me what I call a ‘cold headache’. I really don’t like that feeling! I’ve taken to wrapping scarves around my head on those days. We had big ‘Santa Ana’ winds yesterday & today. They are pretty warm though. ‘Red flag’ warnings etc. Kept me up all night last night. More on tap for tonight too. UGH. Here these wind conditions bring out the fire bugs too. I am thinking your winds are a more enjoyable experience!

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  5. Vicky Avatar
    Vicky

    i love that chair! i really love wood arms on a chair. looks nice with it’s new coat too.

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  6. Michelle in NYC Avatar
    Michelle in NYC

    thinking itself sometimes produces a whole string of feelings to get tangled up in as I did today about the storm due to interfere with my long planned flying to Utah Monday-“Hurricane Sandy is a dangerous storm”–according to Matt Daniel’s WeatherGlobe at EarthSky.org–
    “The track and intensity of Hurricane Sandy is uncertain. But one thing is certain: Sandy is a dangerous storm that the U.S. east coast should monitor closely”
    but you and feelings for the goats, well, right, those ARE feelings, and you a deeply feeling person.
    That sky was such a painting, a cloth piece, a stunning gift, and the chair does look like Winter refuge. I love the JUST tea dyed cloth, another canvas for creativity.
    I wonder what Nancy’s “fire bugs are. son’t you?

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  7. ali Avatar
    ali

    That was a lovely big sky, if only fleeting–I hope you’re staying warm as the weather shifts. it all shifts, doesn’t it? shifting everything, moments then shift again

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  8. Jacky Avatar
    Jacky

    Such a beautiful chair…I love the wooden arms, that it is a rocker (what a bonus!!!). I like that you are covering it, making it part of your home.
    I hope your wild winds settle Grace. The goats will take it all in their stride…I’ve noticed the horses at home when it’s windy and wild. They just turn their bums to the wind and keep on grazing.
    Thanks for the beautiful sky.
    Jacky xox

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  9. patricia Avatar
    patricia

    your post–well just thank you for timely words. maybe something was universally in the “wind” yesterday–ha–i too had feeling/thoughts and they tripped me up. appreciate the reminder and the nudge to quickly recenter.
    now the goats. in wv we bred in november for march births–not too cold–crossed fingers–and not so hot that flies were a problem. don’t know what or if you’re going to breed but think so. and when wanting to dry the goats, i only milked out maybe 1/2, tapering down each day to less and less for 4-5 days and never a problem with mastitis. recall that nm winters can be REALLY cold–but ours were as well. we let the straw build up in their barn, adding new when necessary to keep things dry and over the period of the winter it got pretty deep. the up side was that it created its own eco-system of heat–even the water didn’t freeze as quickly if we nestled it down in the straw–but we did need floating heaters in their water tanks the down side–well, come early spring, cleaning out the straw/etc from maybe 2-3 months of intense winter was pretty intense–but the goats were warm and happy and you’d be surprised at how clean they stayed–even in temps that hovered around 0 or below for days. plus the goats developed wooly mammoth coats. my sense was that they’d rather be pretty cold than really summertime hot. don’t know what your water supply look like but we had to put in those water spigots that don’t freeze up. learned that the hard way

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  10. jude Avatar
    jude

    the chair is a butterfly. i always wonder about the birds. how is that life? do they feel the same. preparing the best they can? big storm watch here. hurricane and blizzard combined. the earth has unheard of surprises.

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  11. grace Avatar
    grace

    it is. it’s another Lee chair. Alz. Betty’s
    late husband made it. (and all those spirit chairs, ghost
    chairs all over outside here). it’s the last one he made.
    they were divorced. only once did she answer me about
    that in the maybe 10 some years i knew her. about why.
    He had built a boat and was sailing, Washington state, the ocean. A huge storm and the boat capsized. This changed
    him. he stopped building boats and instead, built chairs
    and made kites. “I didn’t like him anymore” she said.

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  12. grace Avatar
    grace

    they do…that huge shed, the Albatros. with their little
    square hole to in and out. i need to work more on the
    Buck Hut tho.
    The real cold, the RealWind is not here yet…probably
    not for a month or so. time enough to be ready.
    and scarves….that’s my love for my Boro Noragi Hoodie.
    the HOOD makes all the difference.

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  13. grace Avatar
    grace

    O! here you are again, and this time your “click” took me
    to Cat in the Batt, not facebook!
    yes. it really deserves better photographs…

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  14. grace Avatar
    grace

    the feelings are never the problem, it’s the thoughts,
    the unchecked constructs that breed each other that are
    so Unnecessary, such drains of Energy that has so much else it could be used for…
    i “felt” overwhelmed, incapable one day, but then the next
    was entirely different. it was the same me, the same goats, the same number of hours in a day, the same cloths calling to me, the same Everything. the only thing different was that i realized that the Overwhelmedness
    was because of THOUGHTS.
    this is nothing new, but came with a new clarity so
    maybe i will be able to hang on to it better now. ?
    and yes. Just tea dyed. i forget that all the time too.
    I will get a Candle in town tomorrow for the storm.

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  15. grace Avatar
    grace

    Yes to all you say here…
    Morning skies are often like that this time of year.
    Watching it begin with such a soft glow at the horizon and then burst into this AMAZEMENT is really something

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  16. grace Avatar
    grace

    YES!…the neighbor horses in the pasture next door…i
    watch them do that. i think i might try it in some
    metaphoric way.

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  17. grace Avatar
    grace

    i love this goatTalk….what you did….it’s company
    for the Work. ordinarily, and what does ordinarily MEAN
    anymore?, ordinarily the cold is ok because day breaks
    with beautiful SUN that warms us before night again. i realize, thinking, that i am still working under the
    weight of the winter of 2010 when it went down to an
    UNHEARD of 17 degrees BELOW ZERO. and stayed that way
    nights, for almost a week. Last year tho was back to
    Ordinary. it is just a fact that i seem to be of the
    Lizard clan…i Thrive in dry HEAT and get all whiney
    in the cold.

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  18. grace Avatar
    grace

    a butterfly in more ways than one. i’ll take some pics.
    yes, birds. that thing i have about their feet. same
    feet year round, just thin little things of bone and skin,
    no fur, no nothing, there, gripping the branch. its a
    miracle.

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  19. Susan C Avatar
    Susan C

    Hi grace! That sky is something else – and where you are – you can see so much of it. Amazing.
    I am glad you have found good places for the little goats. When two kids and one dog feels like a lot I think of you and the goats. I am still amazed at what you have done with them. I read an article about a women who hires out her herd of goats to eat the weeds and highly flammable dry grasses off of hard to get to acreage. She unexpectedly fell in love with raising goats. I thought of you.
    Hope all is well on this day. Have a wonderful weekend!

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  20. Deb G Avatar
    Deb G

    The chickens…their feet turn color when they get cold. They huddle down so that their feathers cover their feet… I worried about them so much the first year I had them when it got cold and it snowed.

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  21. Deb G Avatar
    Deb G

    Tea cures many things and the chair looks beautifully strong and comforting. The little bit of a story about it adds so much. Thoughts and feelings, that is something to consider. I always have to remind myself that my physical state can shape my feelings too, or maybe it unmasks them?

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  22. elizabeth fortes Avatar
    elizabeth fortes

    Hi Grace! That beautiful chair seems like a great place for stitching and sorting out thoughts from feelings, vice-versa and/or sewing them together… I’m seeking my comfortable spot too, reviewing some stressful Arctic moments… Returning home is a miracle, always! Gratitude time! e.

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  23. Valerianna Avatar
    Valerianna

    how honest and how strange…

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  24. grace Avatar
    grace

    isn’t it. we talked over the years about a lot of things.
    i know all her family. i go to family dinners when
    they all come. as a matter of fact, they, her adult
    children are all in town to make decisions about her
    STUFF. take what they want. which is such a small part
    of what she had Accumulated. so much left.
    and i have asked her son, who i also work for and am
    good friends with…about what happened. no one really
    seems to have an answer.
    and now, she has forgotten almost everything. when her
    most favorite daughter went to the old folks home here
    to see her after flying here from Seattle, she smiled
    and said ” and how is your Mother?”…………..

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