i accomplished small things today. raked some pulled weeds. pulled out some nails from the fence that were in bad places. Undid Barbara's scur horns from her Stuckness in the Oasis fence in the Way Back. for the rest of the day she continued sticking her head through but was able to extricate herself. i baked sweet potatoes and plantain. picked up a truck load of grass hay bales and unloaded in an orderly manner. Brushed Gideon. spent a few hours stitching vibrations. not much of anything to SHOW for any of it, but it filled the day from start to finish. and all the while, i continued thinking about All the People. about how it can possibly be. and although it is very sad, what i am really doing is trying to understand it. i think it's like things here with the Goats. SO many things factor in. and my granddaughter called. from California. on her way home from work. in the Navy. and i was telling her and she said that although she knows it's not for me, she likes to listen to Talk Shows when she's driving the almost hour to and from her work every day. and that she has listened to a lot of shows about this, many people calling in. and i asked her if she had been able to understand what might be at the core of it all, with all this listening. and she said
no. no one seems to really know. no one seems to really have an answer that feels like a real answer. so we agreed to continue thinking. She is going to be 24 soon. she's in the Thick of it.
and this is Caroline's girl. the only one of 6 that remains skittish. it takes maybe a half hour for me to walk around behind her, going this way and that until i'm able to grab her. then we sit. not so much petting, but just with her on my lap, her feet touching the ground as she needs them to. i talk to her. touch her some. wait until her breathing becomes very quiet. until i can feel her body forget it's being held. today there was some progress. she came very close and played next to me on the rocks. watching me out of the corner of her eye.
her brother on the contrary, is very interested. has lost his shyness. interested in me and interested in the Goat dress.
this is Lucky Star's life in any given moment.
and here we have the Zinnia from Georgia to New Mexico. She made it. a little off , but Here. i'll save her seeds and next year, the seeds will remember, how seeds do.
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