early.  but i want to spend most of the evening with the babies.  a Turn of Events today.  Monica, the young woman with the kids that came last year and took 4 of the bucklings, called.   Her life has changed.  the Man last year left her.  then came back to take what they had.   so now, she's trying again with someone new and living in Lemitar, 4 miles or so away.  She saw the ad on the grocery store board.  She wants Goats again.  He took everything.  including her horses, her pig and her Goats.  She lives now in a place with many livestock pens, shelters.  and no animals.  Goats.  she wants Goats.

so.  i tell her let me think.  i think.  i call her back.

the Vet Tech has not called.  i'd called her a couple weeks ago saying the kids are ready to go.  she said she still wanted them, 2, a doe and a wether, but that with the County and State fairs,  being 8 mos. pregnant, etc. etc. she was not ready.  she would call.  she hasn't.  am feeling it is not a priority.  ok.  so.  here appears Monica.  who is very ready.  so i make a deal with her.  1 doeling and 2 wethers in exchange for intermittent moral support here when i need it.  for help now and then with hoof trimming.  she's close.  she doesn't work.  she LOVES Goats.  

so unless something changes, which it can,  tomorrow or very soon she will take 3 of Lucky Star's kids.  THIS allows me to keep Celia,  (Marti) and then Starling (doe) and Nogal (intact buckling). she also will take Nogal if he doesn't work with the other bucks.  am hoping he can.  but i don't know.  and just to be clear, this will leave one doe each for Lucky Star and Caroline.  this will allow me to milk only once a day in the morning if i want to.  it would allow me to be able to go see my son's new girl,  Giana Alluvial Fan, when she's born.  just let the doelings take over in my absence.

Logistics.  

and the Personal Moon is finished.  and i figured out how to do it AGAIN….is pictured in the SHOP.

Personal Moon   story cloth  $90

 

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she had been waiting.  with her paper face.   Here we go.

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i already know something about this One.  i need a rearranged self, a re-designed self that can move in these days that have been Forming.  i need to retrieve parts of an old self,  create parts i have never chosen to have.  Add these to the present self.  Weave/Stitch them in.  i need a self that works with this Now.  different, but much the same.  but different in ways that the Present needs.

so…ok.  here We go.

 

 

 

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  1. jude Avatar

    we go. we do.

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  2. grace Avatar
    grace

    yes. what is it all “for?”, unless we are able to
    reinvent self to meet the needs of the Present….???…..
    some of old self needs remembering, mending, brightening, strengthening. some entire new stuff needs to be added. and part of that is the HUMOR…(as exhibited by the headdress)….that was so WELCOME about the Mr. Potato Head Spider. HUMOR. not taking it all so seriously. knowing that at this point, I REALLY DON’T KNOW much of anything at all and i really also don’t care. i want to live these days as they show up. be Kind. Good Hearted. Do my Best. Which sometimes might not work.
    A light heart. i’d like that. a light heart.

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  3. jude Avatar

    yes, a good laugh is priceless.

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  4. grace Forrest Avatar

    it is. it really is. it’s one of the biggest things that
    i hold in my heart about your Mother…how you said she could literally fall down laughing. that is so beautiful to me.
    no one in my childhood family laughed. i really can’t
    remember my Mother EVER laughing…..that’s something, isn’t it.

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  5. Judith in N. Calif. Avatar
    Judith in N. Calif.

    How interesting that new homes for goats evolved in the way that it did for you and her…I so hope that she is able to have the goats, if anything, to feed/fill her soul.
    As I scrolled down and came upon the photo of HER on the long strip of fabric…my heart actually jumped with, what I think was, excitement…I’m not positive that was the emotion because it happened so very fast and hard. So I just scrolled back up to look at her again and…she made me smile..as if we’re up to something together. Grace..I have no idea what this means but just sharing a gut reaction. And so I say good night, as it is well past my early bedtime…and on that note, I keep smiling back at her…it’s a little bit strange..I keep smiling. Maybe I’m just really happy for YOU…good night.

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  6. Deb G Avatar

    This is good, giving you space. 🙂 The redesigning, that is important.

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  7. Valerianna Avatar

    I was working outside the other day, feeling tired, but thought…. I can JUST GO – like Grace – slow and steady and see where it takes me…

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  8. patricia Avatar

    this one will be a good one to watch. i want to see. understand. make note of what your discard and take on. and who knows–i’m a dumpster diver from way pack!

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  9. beth Avatar

    Catching up after a few days away… Love the chili story. To have the ability to give. To feed the want for one who wants so badly. A not too hard task for you but just so huge for him. I love you so much for who you are Grace. And the revisiting. Reinventing. Reweaving. So many of us are at this point right now. To know this sisterhood is out here is just so huge for me. Thank you Grace. Love you.

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  10. grace Forrest Avatar

    i hope we’re Up To Something…you, me, her….
    it’s Wednesday now, the 28th…her face looks very different

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  11. grace Forrest Avatar

    and today, Wednesday, i remembered you saying this and
    said to self,
    With Valianna, just Go…so
    we urge each other on

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  12. grace Forrest Avatar

    this is a challenge…..

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  13. grace Forrest Avatar

    yes. i think it has meaning to Many of Us, the reinventing,
    re design.
    Love to you…

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  14. mimmin Avatar
    mimmin

    i wish i could see what she sees, her expression is wonderful
    love how purposeful you are in this new cloth

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  15. grace Avatar

    this cloth has been on the wall next to the Morning Chair
    all this time till a few days ago when i was rearranging
    everything and took it down…but i need to put it back
    because i still need to see that expression, to try
    to achieve it myself….still…..

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  16. mimmin Avatar
    mimmin

    after yoga we meditate and once i shed tears and once spontaneously smiled and i think then i would have had her expression if only my eyes hadn’t been closed.
    she is wonderful, yes put her back up in a place of honor

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  17. grace Avatar

    i did. She’s Up.

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