a thought, floating through the ether for the Time being, is simplifying. Divesting. of stuff.
Simplifying.
i write that word and notice that i exhale rather forcefully.
i don't have much stuff anymore, really. and in adding that qualifier, really, i guess i am not really sure if this is True? but, i think, in comparison, i don't have much stuff. of any kind. so….i have no concerns about divesting of stuff. what i do have in material goods, i think i could walk away from relatively painlessly. Just leave it. but as i think and read others thoughts, it occured to me today that what i do have maybe too much of is Doings. When i had imagined Doing a lot less, i see, if i look with certain eyes, i see that it is possible i have replaced Stuff with Doings????
thinking of these things, i remembered again that somewhere in the incredible book that could take a billion lifetimes to go through and understand Some of:
I Am That Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj 1973 Acorn Press
thinking, i remember most …..that he said….."do not add."
so with these three words, i am going to spend some time thinking. and in the moment, i think it's not an issue for me to Divest of What I Have, but rather, to Not Add. and in keeping with this thinking, i know that i refer to Circumstance. the prime example is the Goats. i didn't decide suddenly that i wanted a herd of Goats and went out and acquired them. the Circumstance arose that i had the choice of keeping Her dream alive or saying no. i said yes. and the Circumstance was that several does were bred already at that time. and so, more Circumstance. but then…i bred 2 again, because i wanted to learn to make cheese. and in this case, i think i became my own Circumstance. and now, i know that i can make cheese. i have made cheese. and i am at a point of breeding again to continue the Cheese Making. this is not circumstance, this is Choice. the first breeding was Choice that naturally arose from circumstance, maybe….but NOT THIS TIME.
so it's good. that i thought of Nisargadatta saying: Do not add. and i looked for the book and Good Again, i found the picture that i have been looking for for years now, in it's pages
i don't know when and how i acquired this Postcard. sometime in my 20's. probably Detroit or Ann Arbor. i honestly don't know. but i saw her. and i identified totally with the image. this is me. someday. i thought.
on the back, it has a copyright 1988 Nancy L. Safford Limousin, France 1977-1983
but then…i kept Adding. Not stuff so much, but Doings. and Doings, really, i am thinking are as strong as Stuff. so….here is where i am in this moment today.
i took the noile out of the enamel walnut pot. it's very Wet in this pic. it will not look like this dry. the color is one i don't even know a name for. and when it IS dry, i'll think about more over dye. it's for the Judy Martin dress/jumper. the small piece to the right is the cotton muslin of the aborted saradine imprint…i like it. but it isn't at all what i had hoped….i have NO technique. Do i Want a Technique???? maybe not. maybe i don't really care.
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