had not planned to work outside today but the forecast says the next few days of drizzle in the form of rain and snow even.  and when i say snow, i should make it clear that this is not snow like others of you have…it's a dusting and almost always melts off within hours.  or, even as it touches the earth.  but still…best to do what needs doing out there

 

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and in the midst of it,  i raked up this,  that i'd put together from things at an auto salvage place years ago, while waiting waiting waiting,  except the bell.  which was added when i finally came home from waiting.  it was like seeing an old friend.  nice.  so i nailed it to that new square in the new Goat Gate place.  a beginning.

 

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and i split and brought in enough wood for a few days, in case.  this one almost too beautiful to burn.

 

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here we are,  at Only 5:17 p.m.  so here we go.   the months of Looks Within….as that guy said at the gas station on the Rosebud Reservation.  it's the only thing that i love to think of for this time of year.  i thank him again for saying it.  the time of Looks Within.  ok.

 

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  1. Michelle in NYC Avatar

    Nice decor for the goats, and oh, the dark so soon, so soon.—Gasp on that last image, and don’t those just clouds look like cloth. The sky makes altars too.

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  2. grace Avatar
    grace

    how BEAUTIFUL a thought….”the sky makes altars too”…
    i’d never thought of it exactly with these words, but
    YES, YES. Sky IS an altar. IS.
    this is just a wonderful thing to
    contemplate

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  3. Valerianna Avatar

    Love that… the months of Looks Within – awesome! Great piece of wood… mesquite or?

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  4. grace Avatar
    grace

    yes. i was driving my old Ford Econoline, Fern, BACK
    across the United States of America, from Arizona to
    Michigan at my daughter’s request. i needed to respond
    to her/for her. but i did not want to “go back”. i was
    a little despondent, at that gas station on the reservation. when i paid my money, he asked me what was up. he said ” what’s up, sister….” in that
    soft kind of almost flat indian way. and me, as i was, and am again, told him more than probably he wanted to know. but no….he listened Care Fully. looking away, as it’s done,
    and then in that same soft almost flat voice said….
    “Winter. time of Looks Within”.
    i can still hear his voice, feel the flourescent flicker of the junky reservation 7 Eleven. it was like the God Thing was talking to me.
    it’s Alligator Juniper.

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  5. grace Avatar
    grace

    it burns hot and clean.

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  6. beth Avatar

    Time of Looks Within. Oh yes it is just that isn’t it.

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  7. grace Avatar
    grace

    yes. there are so fewer distractions.
    the colors are grey, black, white, brown, the brown of
    just brown.
    so
    where to look?
    Within.

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  8. yvette Avatar

    my thoughts are so chaotic that i lost the way to look within
    i so much wish my head stops thinking bad about myself

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  9. patricia Avatar

    oh yvette. this comment of yours really strikes at my heart. perhaps the thinking will persist for ever how long, but the question is “do you believe your thoughts?”

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  10. patricia Avatar

    wow Grace. just when i feel as though it can’t get much better, you post THIS one. the images. the Alligator Juniper. the shared memory. the reminder of the season–the months of looks within. ohhhhhhhhhh yes to it all. and i so love Michelle’s imagery–sky and cloud as altar cloth. blanketing the earth. holding. this all feels so just-in-time special.

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  11. jude Avatar

    the darkness is so familiar, the shortened day. i am unearthed these past days. not sliding into it as easily. splitting wood and keeping the fire burning seems more tiring this year.

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  12. jude Avatar

    yes. me too.

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  13. grace Avatar
    grace

    then you will have to look with my eyes for a while.
    i always see you GLOW. always. and that’s the Truth.
    LOVE to you, yvette, love….

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  14. Michelle in NYC Avatar

    wishing you remembrance, no matter what the head twists thoughts chaotic toward, that we are essentially, and always on our own side, that we are our own best friend, loving mother, sweet sister, kind counselor, and innocent.

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  15. Michelle in NYC Avatar

    Once more wishing you ease of heart, warmth of body and freedom of spirit.

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  16. Michelle in NYC Avatar

    This is just the BEST story, this man listening, and looking away…the wisdom and kindness of his reply.

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  17. maria Avatar
    maria

    to beautiful to burn , i say yes , but the most beautiful things burn the best if we let the beauty go
    tis morning i read some words on the callender
    ” not what you hold on
    but that whatyou let go
    makes you rich ”
    i look truh the small window of the p c room and smile
    what i see ? the sun comes trew the dark clothes and indeed
    it looks like an altar
    i feel familiar on all of you .
    thank you for sharing this al
    i hope you undertsand my Flemish / English
    it is still deficult to me
    it write it is hard
    now i see a triangle of yellow light between the dark clotchs
    it helps to go to the inner silent of beIng
    connect with everything

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  18. Judith of N. California Avatar
    Judith of N. California

    Maria, your words are beautiful and you are familiar to all of us. It is the spirit that happens in this space with Grace and others.

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  19. Valerianna Avatar

    Alligator Juniper… such an interesting color… is it aromatic? Reminds me of cedar or something oily and scented, sandalwood. And, love that soft, flat indian way. Simple, clear, direct.

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