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today again

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i went out.  as i do.  to the Goats.  i go around.  saying their names,  kind of singing.  i don't have pics of that because it's just me and Them.

tonight,  i sing/say Celia's name and she stops.  she Allows.  and i scratch her.  Fully.  BIG NIGHT.

BIG NIGHT for Celia.  she is forgiving me.  for taking her Away from her mother when i was milking.

Forgiving me.  she allows scratching.  Everywhere.  She stands.  allowing.

and i try with Karma.  with Just Going, with Arctica.  no.  they don't.  for their reasons.  so…ok.

but i go out and Try.  and i am full of Goat Stuff.  Their Ways….that i don't fully understand.

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  1. jude Avatar
    jude

    hoping someday the same from soul-o

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  2. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    This warms my heart that Celia allows this closeness. She is very dear to me as are you.

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  3. Cynthia Avatar
    Cynthia

    oh and very late..3 new doelings…not expected until a few days from now…but they are here..two are tiny twins, a first time mother…we did not even know she had had twins…josh found the second little one out and around the corner, just lying there and thought she was dead…but when he picked her up she came to life bleating and kicking…the third..who looks so huge compared to the twins.. was born to a third time mom ..with amazing full udders..she was unsure when meadow brought over the weak little twin..and hesitant..meadow broke the “true ” daughters sac over the tiny twin..and she, isla, nuzzled her immediately…
    and meanwhile the storm raged all around and josh was adding..sheets of insulating tarp and the ever useful bits and pieces and meadow was dressing them in the small fleece jackets that earlier kids had worn through the late snow…
    morning has finally broken..or maybe it is just that the rain has stopped and the gray ..deep deep dark gray has faded a bit..and suddenly everything seems so still…even as i type the sky lightens…everything lightens
    so glad for celia….

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  4. grace Avatar
    grace

    that moment of choosing is WonderFull.
    Jude’s Magic did it the same way. NO. NO. NO. for so
    long, then suddenly one day, Yes.

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  5. grace Avatar
    grace

    i know. she’s your Goat

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  6. grace Avatar
    grace

    oh, Cynthia…OHHHHH, i love to read this, love to see
    the pictures in my find…i give my heart to the little
    one, that she Just Goes….
    THANK YOU for all of this…the flapping tarp…then
    stillness,

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