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looking this morning at the Wall,  thinking how much i have loved looking at these four Cloths  there,  with Small Joys and 7 Crows and 7 Goats so close to ready to Go,  i got ready for a Field Trip for Julie of Threading the Dog.

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i loaded the transport crate and set out to Dog Trainer Jan's house where TenZen has been for just short of a month.   This is where i turn.  You can Google Quebradas Backcountry Byway and read the BLM site.   This is where it begins on this end.  It is extraOrdinary country.  Wild,  once you get into it.  It's where there is a herd of Mustangs still.  It's where i have seen pairs of Eagles.  Wild.  Once into it,  there is NO sense at all of human beings.  Nothing.  It is Pure.  She lives on the road that goes Into it.

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along the road, the view to the West extends across the Rio Grande.  Soon,  that bosque will be green with the Cottonwood and  River Willow.

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to the East and into Quebradas is desert scrub.  The only water there is that which falls from the Sky.

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this is just inside Jan's gate.  It's a Cottonwood and Salt Cedar Forest.  She has a lot of land.  I forget how much,  20 acres at least maybe 40.  This is a place i might have chosen to live,  if I'd known  I could at the time, but I didn't,  and so I don't.  

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it's a long way In.  When she knows you are coming,  she goes out to unlock the Pipe Gate at the road and leave the chain on it with a dummy lock.  When you get there, you get out and open the gate and close it behind you.

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all this will be Green soon.  I'll come back when it is and take pics.  Everytime i have an exchange with her now,  i learn a new  "fact".  Last time i learned that she came from the City.  This time i learned that she has been here 7 years.  As a reminder,  she is maybe somewhere in her early 40's i'm guessing.   This is her solitary world.  Sort of.

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these are her meat sheep.  I should have thought to look at their formal name, but i didn't.

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these sheep SHED their wool.  Less than Wool Sheep,  but wool nonetheless.  You can see this happening on the body to the left.   As the sheep lamb,  they will go into what is called lambing jugs,  small spaces so they can bond.  Today she said it's the easiest time to comb off the wool and i am welcome to it.  She used to spin.  She used to make Felt.  It was part of her Dream but not now.  She makes her living as a paralegal in Albuquerque.  Things did not go exactly as she hoped so she has adjusted the hope and is Just Going.

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This is Nougat.  A Saanen/Nigerian cross

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This is Joey her Nigerian.  Who is continuing to give milk  into the second year after breeding.

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These are Joey's junior does.  A year old.  the brown one is Spice and i don't remember the name of the little light colored doe.   Nougat, Joey, and the little does were TenZen's paramours for almost a month.  The young ones might not have been "ready".  Maybe,  but who knows.  Nougat is TALL..?  Joey was ripe.  So now we wait.  Watch.  Wait.

She had TenZen in one of the lambing jugs when i got there.  Had used her youngest dog to accomplish that and said the dog did very well and she is always now quietly suggesting training Tay to work the Goats.    Pointing out how a dog is better than another person.  I listened.

So,  i put the lasso on TenZen and we cajoled him to the truck and the transport crate which he hopped into with no comotion.  She followed me home and we came in to the yard, leaving the truck outside,  let Tay greet her in her more subdued frenzy and then asked Tay to "Gate".  Which means She goes to where the long lead is tied to the Middle Pen,  gets attached and Stays while the big gate is opened and the truck can back in.   Tay stayed OUT today for all this,  to watch.  She did very well.  In the past i've put her inside the house in her own house inside the house, the dog crate but today i wanted her to Watch.  Perfect.  Once the truck was in,  Jan and i lifted the crate out and then opened it…TenZen still with the lasso and i opened the gate to that buck yard where Nogal was watching from a distance away and after a moment or two, TenZen came out of the crate and into the yard.  Lasso off and he was 

HOME.

Home after almost a month.  Stinking of her doe goats.  And maybe potential comotion for Nogal.  But NOT.  NOT AT ALL.  They smelled each other and Tenzen checked all the feed bowls,  all his best itching spots and then went into the little shelter and layed down.  Nogal,  who has been lonely all this time,  checked him several times.  And went about his own day.  It was Soft.  It was just so much OK.   What might have been difficult between two buck goats as people constantly say,  WAS NOT.  Tenzen was glad to be Home.  Nogal was glad that his Friend was back.  Stuff was good.

Stuff was Good.

and not long into this,  i got a call from the Best Nurse Cindy from the ReHab place in Albuquerque,  and i'd not put this here because it was just TOO MUCH but just a week ago,  Best Nurse Cindy had been taken by ambulance from her home in Mountainair to Albuquerque.  A massive brain bleed.  The EMS people were unsure they could get her there in time.  But they did and this afternoon she called me.  She called me with a crevise in her skull that they cut to release the bleed and she is in rehab and her speech is a little sloppy but her MIND is functioning as it always is and she is trucking around with a walker and expects to be back HOME in the not too distant future and i

sat.

After it was all said and done.  I sat.  I sat inside Gladness.  That even for just This Single Day,  stuff is OK.  Everything is OK.  Maybe not forever, but this one single day was Elegant and Good and OK.  And  i was so so gratefull.

 

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22 responses to “sitting inside Gladness”

  1. Mo Crow Avatar

    what a special space this is!

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  2. Suzanna Avatar

    That is very very true. A refuge.

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  3. Michelle in NYC Avatar

    Busy, productive, protective, powerful, preeminent, perfect, pluperfect and peaceful. POW! WHAT a day that was. My heart is full of your yesterday today.

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  4. julie Avatar

    JUST WHEN I NEEDED IT MOST!!!! I am in a lambing jug of sorts here, hemmed in by almost a foot of snow that sits on ice, that lives inside temps that dont go above low 20s (that would be a warm day). The photo of the long dusty road framed by cottonwood calls to me , but you would know that. i am rooting for Tay, work deep with her, Grace, it will delight you. Thank you….

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  5. Liz Avatar

    A wonderful story in words and picture, but what I love most is the four cloths together … Grace-full

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  6. patriciaspangler47@gmail.com Avatar

    how big can i say YES to all of this. and the sheep. does this mean she collects rather than shears the sheep? and how far from Albuquerque is she? and no water except what falls from the sky? even at the homestead? so many questions. and somehow, what’s coming through the strongest is how everything must have smelled. a potpourri of delight.

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  7. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    Gladness wrapped in the homecoming of Tenzen, in the 4 cloths that tell of how it is, in the encouraging news re Cindy and most of all, in seeing sheep because I’m sure I heard a chuckle of happiness from my favorite sheepherder…

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  8. Tina Avatar
    Tina

    Sitting inside GLADNESS…..indeed surrounded by so much beauty…all the sheep!!! The beauty they are surrounded by……makes me feel very GLAD just being able to look at all the pictures and read your beautiful words.

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  9. Els Avatar

    Hmmmm a LOT brewing on your design wall !
    (what blue skies !!!!)

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  10. grace Avatar

    it is, Mo. I love Places that are someone’s Dream and this so much
    IS. It vibrates with Intention. I feel honored to be allowed
    to Enter. She is a private person.

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  11. grace Avatar

    Yes. a refuge.

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  12. grace Avatar

    a day of ungulates. I love that she and i could exchange goat/sheep endlessly. The only thing that prevents that is the DOING of them.
    I just love what she’s doing here

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  13. grace Avatar

    Julie…everytime i go anywhere at all, i think i should have
    brought the camera for a Field Trip for Julie. Today i did it and
    was so glad…
    Her Place there is so FULL of Intention. Just Brimming. Very
    soon it will green up and be an entirely different world, visually.
    I WILL take photographs of it then. I will take pics of the
    sheep in the lambing jugs and their wool and their lambs. And
    i hope TenZen did his best work and i can take pics of the little
    kids he sires.
    And Tay, she did very well when Jan was here. Tho i did NOT take
    her training advice, Tay is learning. She learns in the way that we do naturally because of our own natures, hers and mine and Jan has begun smiling on that. Her smile is good to see and to feel.
    LOVE to you

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  14. grace Avatar

    yes. these Cloths make me feel very very GOOD.

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  15. grace Avatar

    yes!!!!, sheep!!!! the softness of their minds….they are right
    next to the Goats when then are “in”
    She free ranges them …. her dogs help her do that. They are so
    wonderful, when you come into their area, they are so Visually
    Alert and so ONE with themselves, even more than the Goats…

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  16. grace Avatar

    she is doing Nothing about their wool. I am excited to find out more about it….and yes, i guess you would brush it off…i’ll know more about it when i do it…
    She had sheep for wool too but it was too much to shear them herself and she couldn’t find shearers in a timely manner.
    she is about 15 miles from me, maybe and so that would make her
    maybe like 90 miles from Albuquerque???? i’m not good at miles.
    Water from the sky is over to the East, in the Quebradas. At her Place she has a well. and yes, i have so many questions too. I would blurt them to her, but she is Her and i hold back. One at a time and today she called on the phone to see how TenZen was doing and i was Given more….without asking …and it was so Great…
    And the SMELL of it is so woven to the ALL of IT…and the smell of her horse too, chickens all about, her dogs. Yes. It is just
    very very very FINE

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  17. grace Avatar

    Marti…i did. I envisioned your Father…he would love this Place.
    I would give it to him if i could, and maybe i DID?, but
    Thinking Him, and so bringing him there with my thoughts?

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  18. grace Avatar

    these photographs and the telling of all of it, i hope to Give
    as something of value to the Out There which may not have
    spaces like this????
    Love to you, Tina……….

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  19. grace Avatar

    Blue Skies…oh, yes. There are Blue Blue Skies.
    The Wall is ready for all new things!

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  20. Wendy Avatar
    Wendy

    I’ve been gone too long! I came to see if Tenzen was home. Whew. Now more catching up.

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  21. grace Avatar

    Oh, Dearest and Best Wendy…yes. Tenzen is home. Whew has become
    Just Going. They are fine and good Out There, he and his yard mate Nogal. It is endlessly amazing to me how they do together…two
    bucks…
    it’s not supposed to happen. But they are GOOD. Today, because
    they had somehow, as they DO, moved their feed bowls too far into their space for me to easily throw feed, they were Silly when i
    went in there to restore order. TenZen, in his kind of clumsy way did a little buckling dance all sideways and twirly. Nogal, he
    ran and jumped to the top of their house and threw back his head.
    Dog Trainer Jan is planning to measure the girth of her does every Sunday to see if there is CHANGE, indicating positive result from
    his stay there. So i am anxiously awaiting SUNDAY….????????????
    But, yes. He is Home. And We are Glad.
    love to you….

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