back to that thing of Transmigration

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that little embryonic burst to the right,  approaching…..

The Old Cowboy had a meltdown so to keep it from Growing,  i went in and listened.  He went ON and ON and it wasn't right,  but he couldn't let go of his thoughts,  so i just layed my head on his big kitchen table and listened as he went On and On and because i was quiet,  he went On and On until he just wore himself 

out.

While my head was lying on his table,  i fooled with

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this.  this little "china" face thing and it's beads that i had gotten three of,  each a little different,  and gave to Granddaughter last year when she was here,  passing through,  with her son Julian and her Half Sister of Heart, Veronika who she has had since she was 15.  Veronika graduates High School this June.  So…i'd gotten three.  From Margaret up at the Farmer's Market who likes to fool with beads.  They were i think a Dollar.    All Margaret wants to do is recoup some money so she can buy more beads.  

Anyway,             while listening to OCB i fooled with this odd little china face and marveled that it hasn't broken.  Gets lots of clunking around on the keys.  And i sent Granddaughter this pic and an email saying when i am finally dead and they light me on fire,  i'd like to have this talisman in the inferno with me,  to SET the connection with her.  She emailed back that hers is still attached to her cell phone and ok,  she would remember that.  And she sent some pics

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her son, Julian and then Destiny who is yet another Half Sister of Heart who now lives with them

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Julian's dog Zoey who looks like a Fox.  In the pretty places,  Zoey needs to be on a leash.  But along the drainage canals,  no one cares.  Zoey can be FREE.  Alyssia loves how she is FREE.

and i talked to her on phone.  She likes to take them,  not to just the BeautyFULL  places that are very available where she lives,  but also along the drainage canals….where these pics are from,  she said to look at what LIVES there.  and we talked about how there is a constant effort of Reclaimation in places like that.  And i am here,  this evening,  thinking about her,  about what she Does,  What she Thinks about.   And how we have these kind of icky things hanging on our keys and phones, but also things that are very potent in some way and APPEALING for whatever reason.

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21 responses to “Who ARE we, like, really…..????????????”

  1. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    These photos are filled with such goodness and joy. This is no small thing, showing Julian and Destiny, the gifts that are found from the land, the treasures that come when we pay attention…of course you love her, she has your DNA and I don’t mean cells, chromosomes, etc. but your
    Dear
    Nature
    Awareness
    It is huge and it is important and she is an excellent mother, an excellent teacher because she was shown by example… These are the life things that matter grace, how our grandchildren, great grandchildren come to know the world…

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  2. patriciaspangler47@gmail.com Avatar

    Marti–thank you for saying what i felt but could never have expressed so perfectly. you are an amazing woman, a wordsmith/poet/dyer-of-marvels.

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  3. Liz Avatar

    Hear, hear!

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  4. grace Avatar

    she is a complete Miracle to me, this grand daughter, and remembering, the one that i wanted the Daughter to abort.
    How i saw her, taking her first breath, and how i know her now, as
    a singular woman, young, but so Familiar. So much a peer, so
    Equal and Familiar. it makes me Think and WONDER.
    I love so much the graininess and fuzzyness of the pics she sends from her phone. so like the old black and whites that were in my birth
    family’s old photograph album
    there’s something so very Real about them….

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  5. grace Avatar

    yes. Marti is all these. Very Much.

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  6. grace Avatar

    it’s almost dark. WIND has come, speaks it’s Wind Language and Tay and i
    sit on the steps, listening and watching. Watching and listening.

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  7. grace Avatar

    the Goats. The Goats stand. Watching. Listening.

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  8. Mo Crow Avatar

    I don’t know but there’s a thread that runs through us all

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  9. Michelle in NYC Avatar

    It is enough for me to know you now, and, childless, to share in your family, but I hope the connection is deeper…that it might be we met in other forms before, and that we might meet again in other forms to come.
    It’s April Fools day but if we be fools, we’re the sacred kind.

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  10. Els Avatar

    Love your pieces Grace, especially the circle one ….
    with a bit left open, so one still can get out (?)
    Hmmmm … his Holiness is smiling : at your amount
    of keys … ?
    Rest your head girl, so nice to be there, listening (or
    even pretending)

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  11. Nancy Krampf Avatar
    Nancy Krampf

    ditto all the above.
    i can’t think about anything except your circle…… i see it as your prayer cloth circle and we are all there in that circle. even ocb
    namaste, one who listens

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  12. grace Avatar
  13. grace Avatar

    am sure of it, the knowing from before, the knowing as we go

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  14. grace Avatar

    Els….yes…that little bit of an Opening, yes.
    i still have keys to 5 homes. i never lock my own door, but there
    is a lock on the gate, so that and 3 vehicles and the PO box and
    the truck gas cap and well, there’s one i don’t know what it is for
    and then the great Husky tools key chain screw driver that Deb
    Lacativa sent me.
    there used to be keys for 10 homes. THAT was Something.

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  15. grace Avatar

    i like this, that we are all in even OCB
    yes. like this a LOT

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  16. saskia Avatar

    in answer to your question: i don’t really know, some days i think i do and then something hits me: nope, not who i thought i was
    the man himself here at least says he want me to stick around, and so i shall, it is a loving place to be, just like your place and your relationship with your granddaughter, oh that is truly something…something beyond words really, you have an Understanding
    ……thx for sharing this all here….

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  17. saskia Avatar

    oh, and i love the photo of the two children, this is timeless

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  18. Liz Avatar

    The children are beautiful beyond words

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  19. grace Avatar

    it is. timeless. it is All Children, Everywhere

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  20. grace Avatar

    i love this one so much….the joy that is found along small
    bodies of water among stones. The looking…i love Julian’s
    stance, like Tai Chi heron pose or something….the concentration.
    Most of the time i am ok with the distance, but seeing this,
    i wanted to hop a plane

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