animals and pre verbal human beings,  ie babies.   And of Course,  i live with 20 non verbal beings.  OK.

I want to say this first because it's IMPORTANT.  This morning Early,  i got lost in my anxiety and called Jan the dog trainer through whom i got Tay.  Asked her to come.  In case.  I have been beyond remiss in working with Tay to get in and out of vehicles.  I am ashamed.  

So she came.  but we didn't need her.  I was able to put Tay's front feet into the hatch back and then the rest of her.  Done.  At the Vet she    "Waited"  till i told her OK to get out and went in…nose to the ground and sat and waited.  When it came time,  she went off with Crystal through the door.

I can barely stand it.  Writing these words.  How so totally trusting animal beings are.  It's painfull.

This Vet Clinic,  there are two,  husband and wife.  Husband i know some from when he's come about the Goats.,  but wife i do not know but he is "out" for a week,  so her and  Tay likes women anyway so she tried to see inside her mouth in several different ways but no,   Tay wasn't going to.

so i left her and she went off,  so totally trusting of Crystal the Vet Tech with instructions to call back at 2 oclock.

Long story short,  but Important,  Tay behaved so so GREAT!  The vet had known her before i got her a year ago and laughed saying she has come such a long long way since then,  how really great she is.  I was glad for Us.  Me and Her that we have added up to something.

so it required a total anesthesia and what could be seen was Beautiful Teeth and nothing in the gums but  a SWOLLEN gland,  like a tonsil with pock marks and two pock marks on the base of her tongue and NO EXPLANATION for it so we are left here tonight with two pill things,  one Cephalex in  an antibiotic and then Rimadyl an antiinflamatory and directions to let her have 4 icecubes at 7 pm to wet her mouth.

it's a Mystery.

I am SO GLAD that she is Home.  Beyond GLAD.  She's HOME.  and we go from here.

 

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24 responses to “my Achilles Heart”

  1. Tina Avatar
    Tina

    Yes it is very good that Tay is home…..no really knowing the what or why would frustrate me. But yes Tay is home!

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  2. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    Tay is HOME, and while all is not known, all is where it should be, all is as well as it can be and all in this moment, is filled with relief and love…

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  3. Mo Crow Avatar

    ((((Tay)))) ((((Grace))))

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  4. Stephanie Avatar
    Stephanie

    Hugs and love to both Tay and Grace.

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  5. Julie Avatar

    where would we be without vets and pediatricians. Same thing, different number of legs. PS late thank you for linking to my blog the other day, traffic over there was like rush hour going into Manhattan on a Monday morning!

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  6. Kathy dorfer Avatar
    Kathy dorfer

    Glad to hear Tay is ok . It is such stress going to the vet with our friends and companions.
    They really have to trust us. Isn’t it amazing how you can talk to them and they actually
    Understand you ? I spend a lot of time alone with my dog .
    I am loving your wolf !
    Xxoo
    Kathyd

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  7. Michelle in NYC Avatar

    Your “Achilles Heart” !!!!!!! Perfect story telling and I was with you and Tay every step of the way. Oh, how I remember that anxiety, that pain in the heart, that love. I still have a little with the pigeons (had to install some spikey things on the A/C so I could protect it from poop now that I need to unwrap it from plastic and use it if I’m ever going to sleep in the heat) I worried for their loss of a perch, but they are still here on the other sill. They are so hated I can’t help myself sometimes but be on their side. May all be well with Tay now. Such a mystery sometimes. Wolf is getting realer and realer.

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  8. .cynthia Avatar
    .cynthia

    laughing at myself..and now truly laughing because i had to force myself to read truly and slowly to let you tell the day and see what happened..i wanted just to peek …to speed to the end.. to make sure that you and Tay were alright… it was hard to let your words unfold…..but this was the two of you…obviously an achilles heart of my own…
    there is no shame in being prepared..only joy that extra help was not needed…the unknown can be so big to face alone
    so glad to find you happy and home…all of you
    gentle day grace

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  9. Wendy Avatar
    Wendy

    Here’s to Tay’s rapid recovery. To Jan, to Crystal, to the docs. Of course Tay was good; she trusts herself, too, to figure out what is going on in new situations. Whew.

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  10. Els Avatar

    All the best to Tay !
    (she looks lovely, running across your lovely cloth ?)

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  11. grace Avatar

    no…it’s not her. It’s the Wolf that was gunned down in Catron
    County.

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  12. grace Avatar

    yes. the what or why. very much. but there was no answer.
    The xrays showed nothing but that swollen “tonsil”. with pock
    marks. the tongue, with those pock marks.
    UnKnowns.
    the hope is that with the antibiotic and anti inflammatory, it will
    all just “go away”. Forever maybe, that would be best, or for
    however long, at least.
    so we just hope now. and wait.

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  13. grace Avatar

    it was so different, without her here all day yesterday. She
    FILLS this place with herself…there was a VOID

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  14. grace Avatar

    yes. this is good, these hugs

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  15. grace Avatar

    i feel them

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  16. grace Avatar

    i will come back there in the morning. (Sunday)

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  17. grace Avatar

    from last Sunday, on, i talked to her about how we needed to
    go. How it might make things so much better. She looked. Deep
    into me.

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  18. grace Avatar

    to “work it”, inside what we have. such a challenge for ALL.

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  19. grace Avatar

    i wanted Jan because Tay also knows her and trusts her, so
    wanted her “in case”. But how it actually went….i was so
    PROUD of Tay. Her trust and her great good Heart for it All

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  20. grace Avatar

    She does. She is growing into Herself and taking risks as she
    sees them as need. I have just such enormous respect for her

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  21. Nancy Krampf Avatar
    Nancy Krampf

    Tay is OK . Yeah!

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  22. saskia Avatar

    what a relief!

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  23. grace Avatar

    for now. we Hope.

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  24. grace Avatar

    yes. Everything that she IS is necessary here now

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